Posts Tagged ‘the kurgan’

I think Bruce Charlton is a gatekeeper

I am not yet convinced he is an intentional gatekeeper, like say, Milo Yankmypolus, but he is undoubtedly adding to the level of blackpilling despair.

I am more liable to put this down to his being the intellectual coward he is, as well as being a gnostic heretic, which, intentional deceiver or not, can only lead to Hellish effects, results, conclusions and beliefs.

It is the reason I despise cowards perhaps even more than I do actively evil people. The evil are just servants of evil and must be destroyed or they will destroy you. But the cowards… the cowards backstab you and poison the well in order to be eaten last. They pollute the mind of the gullible and young with the lies of fear and teach them cowardice as virtue and courage as “bigotry”. They are the fog-fart beings upon which all evil is founded.

And Bruce is an intellectual coward. Something I have evidenced before, and his net effect is to create only more despair and fear and weakness in all those who listen to or read his gnostic, heretical nonsense.

Let’s take a look at his “take” on certain things.

Here is a screenshot of his latest posts:

So, out of six posts, we have:

  • 2 posts equating, implying or directly saying that computers/the internet and so on could be/are/would be influenced by or used by demons.
  • One post on psychology that is really quite absurd, don’t take my word for it, go on, read it yourself and let me know how it changed your life.
  • One on the doom and gloom idea that even if we try to fight back against the forces of evil we are only contributing to the overall evil and destruction of all and his completely nihilistic nonsense ends with the panacea that we must only rely on the “spirit” since all battles in meatspace are only adding to the evil. It is possibly his most cowardly post yet and the one I despise most of the ones I have read. Bruce is obviously of the opinion that the Spartans should have just gone quietly into the night, and so too the knights of Malta and everyone who ever picked up a weapon and fought the tyrants and won. Pathetic, disgusting black-pilling coward. It is enough to make me believe he is a gatekeeper and intentionally so, but I know enough to realise that the probability is more on the side of him being your typical, nihilistic British geek. All theory and no balls.
  • One in which he totally cripples the very idea of precognition, which, by the way is a verifiable scientific fact, as the meta study by Honorton and Ferrari has amply demonstrated (I discuss this at length in the book Systema) and which I also have personal experience, as to other people I know, then he carries on in his bumbling, intellectually dishonest and also ignorant way, to get Karma and Destiny similarly wrong and “defined” in the same crippled way he “defined” precognition. It’s not just bad, it’s objectively, demonstrably wrong.
  • Lastly, one in which Earth becomes some giant being that “chooses” to be resurrected and everything is beings… honestly, it’s like the fever dream of a heroin addict, a bunch of utterly gnostic rubbish.

Bruce Charlton is your typical British geek, he clearly has been an incel most of his life and retreated in his specialboi ™ idea that he is very smart and has very important ideas to share with the world. Unfortunately his ideas are mostly delusion and as he becomes more despairing and probably lonely, he churns out more gnostic and heretical nonsense that if anyone bothered to try to take seriously could only lead them into the same pit of depression he probably inhabits.

In short, Bruce Charlton is not promoting anything real that will improve your life, your faith, or, especially, your reasoning ability. He is a fraud and ultimately a negative one.

Some are liable to say that I criticise everyone and are not sufficiently supportive of those that are “on our side”.

Let me state the obvious again.

There is ONE truth. ONE.

It is the same for you, me and the entire rest of the Universe.

Yes it’s true that none of us sees it perfectly, but where I see obvious error and deviation from what is absolutely true, I try to correct and help if possible, privately first, less so later and finally publicly when it affects things like the despair and salvation of others. Do I think Bruce Charlton is evil incarnate? No. I assume he’s your typically pedestrian Brit, unsatisfied with life and going about it in his quiet desperation, while sharing it with others in an effort to make himself feel more relevant as a whole, but instead, just spreading despair, nihilism, and heresy. I don’t care about Bruce. I am far more concerned with the people he might influence into taking his gnostic nonsense on board in any way.

It would be better for anyone to join a boxing gym and focus their energy in becoming a decent practitioner of boxing. And keep in mind I believe boxing over the long term causes a certain extent of brain damage. Even so, I absolutely believe it would be healthier to be a boxer than a follower of Bruce Charlton’s “ideas”. That’s all.

Nor is it true I attack everyone. There are a lot of enemies so I attack them when and as I can or see fit to do so. I have plenty of people close to me that are positive and good and with which I make plans for the future, and there are also the people I support and give shout-outs to, as, recently, for example, that German politician. But the snakes in the grass, the impostors, the frauds, the nihilists, well, they are the traitors in our trenches and they need to immediately be thrown out into no-man’s land as cover for our sandbags. Or to put it another way, with only one addition: It doesn’t limit itself to pedophiles and child abusers. It applies to all important distinctions of the truth.

Taboos, Magic and the Human Mind

There is an excellent article on taboos and their differences in different races and cultures, it is truly a good piece, so I suggest you read the whole thing.

I want to focus on one aspect of it that I witnessed myself in extreme context when I was only four years old, but I remember absolutely clearly.

First, a piece from the article for context:

Taboos in Africa where Schweitzer served were not (always) the same for every person, like they are in our culture. In Schweitzer’s society, taboos were created at the individual level, whereas for us they are usually more general. All whites now are forbidden certain speech here, for instance.

Schweitzer says, “There is nothing in life that may not give occasion to a taboo.” Taboos originated in any number of ways, holders often inventing them for themselves, and also desiring to do so

One instance: “In the neighborhood of Samkita there lived a woman whose taboo was that she must never touch a broom but do all her sweeping with her hands.” A more important example:

During my first stay, a tragic taboo affair happened at Samkita. A boy at the Mission school there had as his taboo that he must not eat plantains, and must even be careful not to eat any food out of a cooking-pot in which plantains had been cooked immediately before. One day his schoolfellows told him that he had eaten fish from a pot in which there had been remains of plantain. He was immediately seized with cramp and died after few hours. A missionary who was present gave me an account of this perplexing affair.

The modern European will seek for a scientific, medical explanation. A pastime of historians is diagnosing figures from the past from tenuous clues, so strong is the urge to put everything into accepted medical bins. In this case, the modern European will surmise that the boy had a serious allergy, maybe, and the chemical reactions inside his body brought about by eating the plantain caused his death. 

This proves, as do the actions of the unfortunate boy himself, that it is not unusual to try to fit the round pegs of observation into the square holes of theory that culture provides.

But notice, and notice carefully, that there is no indication that the pot had any plantains in it! The other boys only said there were. The taboo killed the boy. 

If you’re not sold by that story, realize there are many, many other similar ones. They are anyway well known, or used to be. And not restricted to Africans. Fahrenbach tells us Comanche life was in most respects ruled by strict custom enforced by taboos, which we discussed before.

What’s important to us today is the causative effect of the taboo. Taboos caused illness and death. There is no doubt of this. Just as other forms of magic gave health and preserved life. There is no doubt of this either.

Europeans call the health-giving properties of magic the “placebo effect”, to make it sound like science, as all things must. Giving a thing a label is sufficient to put it into a bin, so we can more or less forget about it, as if the label has explained something. It’s not surprising that this label-explaining happens most in psychology. Theories on causal mechanisms abound, but there is no consensus, and many contradictions.

Interestingly, no magic-oriented culture would quail at prescribing magic readily, whereas our science-oriented culture has many long hang-wringing debates over whether prescribing placebos is ethical. We desire to cure people, but we don’t want anybody to stray too far from science.

Taboo translated into science is nocebo, a more recent coinage than placebo. It took a lot longer for science to acknowledge the causative evil effects of taboo violation. Yet nocebos are just more label-making: nothing has been explained. But the acknowledgement is a step forward.

The above paragraphs are absolutely correct. I covered some of this in my posts that included commentary on Maxwell’s equations, the aether and scalar potentials and energy transmissions. I touch on the subject of various “paranormal” phenomena and how to be able to do them yourself in my book Systema, which literally teaches you how to do things like short range telepathy, sensing of various things, from colour to intent and so on, but I want to describe an event I saw with my own eyes when I was four years old in Nigeria.

First, let me state that I have always had an excellent memory right from age two or so. I mention this because a lot of people find that unbelievable, at least as unbelievable that they can’t recall anything prior to age seven or in some cases even later, which to me looks like either retardation or traumatic emotional damage. Perhaps my Asperger’s helps in that regard for I was not short of significant emotional events in childhood, but I recall them all clearly. Anyway, on to the thing I saw.

The Fulani are a semi-nomadic tribe that in Nigeria in 1973, when I was there, for the most part acted as guards. they were honest and didn’t steal, so people used to hire them to guard building sites at night, their homes and so on. Where we lived there were two western style houses, one in which my family, composed of my dad, mom, brother and myself lived, and the other where my dad’s boss, Vincenzo Valsesia lived. They were two bedroom places with one toilet and a lounge/dining area and a veranda enclosed by mosquito netting where windows would be. The kitchen was separate from the lounge/dining area and was accessed via a short covered walkway that linked the kitchen to the dining/lounge room. Giant jumping spiders an inch or two long would run along the walls and jump from one corner to the other, toads, frogs and scorpions were ever-present and so was the occasional rabid dog that would come charging out of the surrounding jungle with literal foam at the mouth and that my dad would invariably dispatch with his shotgun. Once this happened directly at us on a day he was home, though when the workers mentioned one was about my dad would return home and guard us. We had a radio that kept in touch with the site he worked as, managing the construction of Army barracks in an otherwise sparse jungle location with clearings only for our houses and a bit further away the house of another expatriate company, I think it was Costain.

The Fulani had some of their huts not far from our home, roughly between ours and Mr. Valsesia’s place. Their leader lived there and sometimes played with me, using his warrior sticks they used as weapons and giving me a smaller stick to teach me how to fight with them. He was a gentle and kind man, but he had the lean body of a runner and he led his men wisely and strongly. He was not afraid not weak in any way and my dad often jumped in his land-rover with the Fulani chief in the passenger seat to go chase some thieves that had tried to raid one of the building sites for materials.

I remember one day he was playing with me, showing me how to strike with the sticks, he was using his own real weapon-like staves —he had a longer and a shorter one, using both simultaneously— and I had just a small one I was using as a tiny samurai in two-handed fashion. At one point I struck his main staff and it split down the middle breaking in two with a long crack going lengthwise up it. The chief looked astonished. Looked at his staff incredulously then shook his head and just walked away without another word to me. At the time, I was unsure if his staff had really broken or if he had intentionally substituted it for one that he knew would break to maybe make me think I was a great “warrior”. I was unsure of this second hypothesis though, because the staff he was using was a well-worn one and as far as I knew was the one he always had, and secondly, his reaction. He did not congratulate me or do any of the usual good-natured speaking he did (in a language I didn’t understand of course, as he didn’t understand mine either). On reflection, though, in hindsight, his reaction I am sure was genuine, and probably went something along the lines of these white devils being so powerful in their magic that even one of their little boys could destroy his main weapons with a single good blow. I say this because of the other event I witnessed around the same time.

The Fulani chief was I think nominally Muslim, and as such they had up to four wives, him being a chief he had four, and I recall he explained to my dad once that four wives was really the limit, in theory you could have more, but if you got a fifth one, you should “fire” one of the others.

His wives were ranked by age, and the older one was the leader-wife, and in descending order of age came the other three. One of the younger wives, I think it was the second-youngest, did not get along well with the chief wife. The women washed their dishes and pots religiously, every day, in sight of our home, as their camp was only a few dozen metres from us and my brother and I would roam the area, playing, looking for bugs, frogs, and generally doing whatever we wanted without anyone worrying unduly about the occasional snake, scorpions, or wild rabid dogs that infested the area. Such is the way GenX was raised.

I therefore was a prime witness to the older chief-wife washing all the pots and pans and then the younger wife throwing dirt on them and running away laughing. The older wife cursed at her a bit then washed them again. This happened more than once. I was fascinated because even at age four, I did not understand why the older wife did not simply beat the younger one, or, just leave the pots dirty and tell her husband when he came home. Being a little older now I guess that the reason was that the husband, as chief, had his hands full all day with various things and the last thing he wanted to do was come home to dirty plates and arguing wives. Possibly, each wife also had set chores, so the pots being clean may have been the responsibility of the chief-wife and, rightly, any excuses for not having it done would be seen in extremely poor light. So, after the third warning that the older chief-wife gave, and the third time the younger one threw dirt on the cleaned plates, the older wife got a very determined look on her face, grabbed a small piece of baboon skin, said a few mysterious words and then began chasing the younger wife around the courtyard, which was really just bare reddish earth with no fence or wall at all until it reached the untamed jungle. The younger wife ran away screaming and sort of laughing, in that kind of genuine fear that however things you will escape, but the older wife, though not as young, was crafty, and anticipated the turns and swirls that the younger one made, and soon caught the back of her T-shirt with her left hand and shoved the piece of baboon skin down the back of her shirt/dress combination.

Instantly the younger wife threw herself on the ground and started screaming and twisting and rolling about. It looked straight out of some exorcism film in reverse. She screamed and jumped and twisted on the floor like something possessed, then seemed to pass out in a fever and just lay there. The older wife I recall, stood watching it all and when the younger one lapsed into her moaning fever-coma she turned away with a satisfied smirk on her face and went back to washing her plates for the last time today.

The other wives, helped by some friends carried the malingering younger wife into their hut. The woman could not walk or talk and they had to carry her. Shortly thereafter my dad returned home in his Land Rover with the chief beside him. The Fulani had a system where they would shout out and from one to the other they would soon reach wherever the chief or thieves at a building site where. So the chief was soon aware he had to come home and he had asked my dad to bring him home to get there faster.

The chief went in to see the semi-comatose wife and my dad went along to see what was up. I followed them and tried to quietly tell my dad what had happened, but my dad, being a Westerner and thinking probably that his four year old son was unlikely to be able to solve what he assumed was a malarial fever (except they didn’t get it like we did) or some other disease, wasn’t listening to me very much, worried about the woman.

When we were all next to the woman lying on her bed and moaning softly, my dad felt her forehead and knew she did have a real fever, which was partly why he wasn’t listening to me. He tried to explain to the chief she was ill and tried to find out how long she had been feeling ill. It was only when the chief managed to explain that it was some Ju-ju that he finally listened to me. Ju-ju was the word for black magic. At that point my dad finally looked at me and asked me what happened. I still recall what I told him at the time in Italian:

“there is nothing wrong with her dad, she was running around and laughing today, ask the other people here. But she was throwing dirt of the other woman’s cleaned plates, so that one got upset and chased her with a piece of baboon skin and threw it down her shirt. After that she rolled around on the floor screaming and just lay there.” My dad pointed out that the woman had a real fever though, to which I said, “I know she has a fever, but it’s all in her head dad.” My father probably wasn’t sure if I had really understood the situation, I was four after all, but he asked the other people there and despite the language barriers, realised I had summarised what had taken place correctly.

He thought for a bit, then went home with me and when alone double checked with me exactly what had happened, which I repeated to him. he then took a couple of aspirins, and crushed them into a powder. We then returned to the chief and my dad explained that this powder was a powerful white man Ju-ju that would heal his wife and she would sleep and be fine in the morning. they mixed the white powdered aspirins into a bit of water, which made it bitter, but all the better for the Ju-ju I guess, and slowly made the woman sip it. She had been in her semi-comatose state but had heard everything my dad had explained laboriously through the half-english, half-fulani, half-italian and not good with fractions explanations. As soon as she drank the medicine the woman fell asleep snoring. And the next morning she was up and about physically fine but with a much subdued and morose affect.

There was literally nothing wrong with her other than her mind, culture and belief system told her there was. that piece of baboon skin would have had zero effect on me. And not because I was a magical small white warrior-king that can destroy the chief’s main weapon with a common stick I picked off the ground, but because I didn’t believe that shit.

That said, I was a teenager when I learnt that I too was susceptible to the same wrong way of belief. As a kid I used to get sick very easily, especially with sore throats, flus, as well as gut-folding stomach aches. I also got regular nose-bleeds but they didn’t bother me beyond staining my clothes if I wasn’t careful. I was so ill that at one point I missed about three months of school, being in bed with fever, cough, sore throats and so on. When I finally returned to school I was physically weak from having been in bed so long. On the walk home, a thundershower of the type you get in Africa suddenly drenched me. You can go from sunny to torrential rain in seconds and I was wet through all my clothes, just a few hundred metres from home. As I shivered in the cold rain I realised the rain and being cold this way was a certain reason that I would be ill again. All I needed to catch a cold was to literally get cold or rained on and I would be sick the next day or within hours. I had literally just spent three months in bed, had had one day at school and now I was going to get sick again. I felt an absolute rage rise up inside me and I determined right there and then that I would not get sick froths stupid rain and I would not get sick again.

From that day on my incidence of flu and so on disappeared back to what most people would call “normal”, And I was not sick the next day or for a long time after. I still get the occasional man-flu, but I did not get sick at all for most of my life after I realised the power my mind had on it. Even my stomach issues which have a basis in Gilbert’s disease, a genetic disorder of the liver, have much improved as I applied this lesson to them. It is true that covid really did knock me on my ass and pneumonia nearly killed me in April of last year and I had a recurrence in November and that I have been a bit far from perfect health for a while, but I do think there are external factors too. That said, the lesson is still in there and I have been better lately even as I take steps to reduce the external factors, like mould, diet, and next some way to avoid the worst effects of the chemtrails, which I am researching, but above all, mindset counts far more than you think.

I am now in the process of consciously applying the positives of the “placebo” effect, which I wrote about on this blog before, in as many aspects of my life as I can. And it is indeed having results already.

There is a link between “positive thinking” (which is mostly a con-job sold by grifters in the format it is most often presented in) correct prayer, and the right mental attitude of responsible creator instead of “powerless victim”, but finding the right balance and applying correctly is a fine balancing act. Or maybe I just think it is. Either way, positive results are happening gradually but continuously, not just for me, but also for those that have asked for help in changing their minds in this fashion.

I hope you will consider your own placebos, nocebos, taboos and superstitions and alter them as required to produce better effects in your life.

The Fighter’s second most important asset

Community.

You can have the best mindset, the best geography, the best weapons, but if you are alone you will eventually be taken out.

That said, there are some important points that can be counter-intuitive, which one needs to understand so as not to give in to the black-pill despair they are trying so hard to force upon you (which goes to mindset, covered in the previous post).

Community goes to mindset (for most)

It is a fact that human beings, even misanthropic ones like myself, are creatures that require others of their kind to feel good and thrive. Ultimately, my misanthropy is a function of my IQ, which tends to “price me out of the market” in most cases. A common faith that is absolutely hot or cold, and not lukewarm churchianity can and does bridge the gap, because loyalty trumps intelligence in human affairs, and honesty (translated as genuine commitment) trumps numbers (of lukewarm “compatriots”). I specify these points about myself only because they hold true for all human societies that are civilisational (see previous post for the difference between civilisational societies and other types which are stagnant or parasitic).

For most people, community goes to (serves) mindset. That is, if you have a community of loved ones and friends around you, it makes life more bearable and keeps you in a more positive mindset than if you are alone, have no one that loves you and no one for you to love.

Those who have an intrinsic, fundamental warrior’s mindset, however, can make mindset go to (serve) community. In fact, that is the essence of a warrior. The word Samurai meant servant. Because a warrior’s ultimate aim, in the depths of his soul, is to protect the people he loves and bring honour and justice to the society he lives in. The stolen valour of the idiots that think wearing a uniform as a policeman or soldier automatically makes them “warriors” is just more of the fakery and plastic lies that have been fostered upon the planet by the parasites that run Hollywood and infect the general zeitgeist through lies in mass media, lies in schools, lies in entertainment, in film, in books, in the arts. Wearing a uniform does not a warrior make. Being one is the only way one is one, and paramount in a warrior’s way of being is a very refined sense of justice; which includes virtues like fairness, honour, honesty and courage, but above all, in the centre of the flame in his heart, at a warrior’s core, is sacrifice. His aim is to serve those he loves, to protect them and look after them. Not with words, not for glory or any fame, but because it is his nature. He would do that even if he would be covered in infamy.

Because of this peculiarity of mind, soul, intent, a warrior’s mindset can create community.

While normally community bolsters mindset, and this is true for everyone, a sufficiently strong mindset can create a community. It is, of course, a usually harder road, but can produce excellent results.

It is a path I have explored several times in my life, and also the one I chose presently. When I moved here, purchasing the land and home we are now in, I had no idea what the people around here were like and I did not care. I assumed the general mild personalities that one expects in most of Europe, and generally this is true of most places, but it did not concern me.

The core of my community is my wife and children, and everything beyond that, I will form myself by being the hub around which my type of community naturally wants to form.

Communities arise from chance and opportunities in most cases, but like any organic system, they can be engineered. The pedophelic parasites running things are demonstrating that daily, with shaping societies to accept all sorts of vile and absurd rules, taxations, forced toxic serums into the bodies of their children and themselves, limitations on what food and of what type you can eat or grow or have, and on and on and on. They are absolutely engineering society by brute force methods from the outside in, to the point that the Zyklon generation may have as many as one in five that believes the total fiction and counter-to-objective reality that the sex of a human being can be changed or is “fluid” or a “social construct”. In short, you have proof positive before your eyes that a community can be socially engineered to even reject objective facts and undeniable reality.

Just as you might think the ancients were foolish for believing in Zeus, yet you think it’s normal to accept homosexual “marriage” and adoption of children, seeing no possible evil consequences to the last two. While possibly understanding that worshipping fallen angels masquerading as gods is bad, you might accept that eating genetically modified foods that don’t produce viable natural seeds is required or even a net “good” because you have bought into the next narrative of “climate change” while ignoring chemtrails and HAARP geoengineering.

I point these things out merely to show you that not only can community be engineered by outside forces, and, that in fact it has been and is being engineered (to your personal detriment) but also to show you that you, yes you specifically and individually have also been subjected to this and still are in at least some areas. It is inevitable. We have all been lied to from birth and the process of seeing reality as it is while shedding the lies is far from easy, especially if your mindset is not that of a fighter (see previous post). Bit aside from all of these points, which are necessary for you to know about and see in order to see the bigger picture, the main point of this section is this:

A warrior mindset can be the core about which a community develops. In short, while most will try to move to a place they feel ties to, from cultural to familiar to faith-based and so on, a warrior can carve out a piece of land and say:

Here I stand.

And others will gather around him and follow him and create a community around him.

I chose this path because of two main reasons:

Firstly, I have done it before in several contexts in my life and always achieved it, initially doing so without the intent, only sheer bloody mindedness that I knew my way was true and good and screw anyone else that didn’t see it. Later in life I learnt I could do that and not even need to be so combative about it.

And secondly, I was (and remain) unaware of a community of people that sees things as I do and that are also hardcore sedevacantists. While I know quite a few Sedes, many of these are overseas now, and their situations and geography does not permit them to be near me now, and my remaining there would not have permitted me the creation of the type of community I sought either. So my choice was easy: pick a place that is geographically sound and that permits certain social realities, then, the community will come.

And this is indeed now beginning to form at the level where people are actively looking to purchase property within walking distance of mine, precisely so we can become a community of like minded people that help each other and create the type of society we want.

The point is, while most will feel it’s easier to simply join an existing community, and it is true, the type of communities we will need in the coming years and that our children will need in the future, do not currently exist in any kind of large number, so, we have to create them.

And that means someone has to start and be the focus of one. In short, take on the role of leader in some form or other, not for the glory, the gold, the concubines or anything other than the sacrifice of service for the safeguarding of the future of our children.

Which is why I say, if you already have such a community of, say, Appalachian mountain rednecks that think anyone who doesn’t marry their cousin is suspect, well, if they are your people, go for it, I hope you have a fetching cousin is all I can say. Is that the best solution? Not by a long shot, but anything that will actively resist the coming plans they have for you, short of cannibalism and first degree incest, is probably a better bet.

Personally I think a community that has the same Catholicism that the people who went on the first Crusade, in 1095, like Bohemond, Tancredi, and so on, or who defended Malta in 1565 like the Catholic knights there and their indomitable leader, Jean Parisot le Vallete, is not just the best solution, it is, the one true solution, because THAT Catholicism has been proven historically impossible to defeat; which is to be expected if you understand that our Lord Jesus Christ said he would be with is to the end.

Of course the Church has been infiltrated and the Vatican is a hive of pedophiles and Satanists, and yes, there has not been a valid Pope since 1958, but the remnant remains, Sedevacantism IS Catholicism, and the only one left and the only one that is as it always was, with proper ordination, proper sacraments and the true mass.

All those who investigate this issue honestly cannot escape the facts, which is why the short book I wrote a mere few years ago has helped more than 100 people to convert, get baptised and become Sedevacantist Catholics. (NB: the paperback is always more up to date than the kindle version in all my books).

And why those who wanted the details and the roadmap to how to reclaim the actual Catholic Church from the impostors that now usurp it also went on to read Reclaiming the Catholic Church. And why now they are beginning to make plans to move here nearby. And make trips here first to visit and help me on the farm. And get married in church to Sedevacantist women, and go on to make children, living as proper Catholics, with no divorce and no contraception.

Sure, the creating of a community is harder than the joining one, bit the beauty of Catholic communities is that within one generation we have multiplied in number several times.

I have five children and started only late in life, the last three are four years old, two and a half, and the last one is only five months old, and I am 53. There are newly wed couples in their early or mod twenties who are just starting out. Three such couples getting married just this year and yes they all found their way to sedevacantism theough my work, be it the books linked above or the YouTube channel, or Kurgan TV, where others also have contributed to a site that educates you about the reality we actually are in, the way to learn independently, and the real history of humanity, as well as other important skills.

I am but one man, and no, I am not especially important or to be glorified, God is. And yet look, in time, this place I chose will become a community of Sedevacantists and out children will play and learn with each other and grow in a place that is safe and true and men are men and women are women, truth and beauty and justice are present always and if others try to make it unsafe, we will repel them and make it so.

My point here in summary is this:

Mindset is the foundation (see previous post), and community is the first cornerstone, and if you can find a ready made one, great, but be careful because the kind of community you need to be part of to survive and thrive in the future has not existed for several centuries. We have to create them. And while the foundation of them are indeed to remain unchanged (real Catholicism) the current and future requirements are unique to our times. Yes the basis is the same, but the way they play out in the technology, defence, energy generation, communications and so on, we have to design.

And yes. I do have a plan. And yes, I will build it. And yes, they will come. They are already coming here. It’s no field of dreams. It’s fields of real men and real women, with real families, and, as the song says:

…beautiful fields lie just before me
Where God’s redeemed their vigils keep…

So, find your community, create one, or join us.

A Fighter’s Absolute Top Weapon: Mindset

Regardless of your IQ, your reflexes, your physical constitution, your resources and your opportunity relative to your target, all of which are obviously important, there is one thing that absolutely separates the warriors from the LARPers, and the winners from the losers.

A fighter’s mindset is the absolute foundational bedrock on which everything else that makes him a fighter hinges, and this is even far more important in real life than in set-pieces like a boxing or MMA match which have rules and are set in essentially artificial parameters.

In real life, there is no referee, the fight is not necessarily directly physical against another human and so on.

The last 3 years of total war have demonstrated that in order to depopulate you, personally and specifically, weapons of mass effect have been used against you. And if you pay any attention to these things, you will note that the primary weapon used was psychological.

The constant media bombardment of fear of the deadliest virus ever known to man in all of human history, was relentless. A virus so deadly that it turned out it had a mortality rate lower than the common flu. Nevertheless, it worked. People were scared, especially initially when nothing was known and the fake numbers and fake information coming through was apocalyptic in nature.

In parallel was run a massive campaign of economic destruction and psychological isolation and terror about your loved ones dying as well as yourself if you did not inject yourself with a genetic serum they SAID was safe and effective, but really was and is murder-juice.

And of course, they used the state sanctioned force to impose house arrest, business shut-downs, and fines and imprisonment for anyone who did not comply with self-tagging with totally pointless masks and so on.

You didn’t get the red commie bastards, freaks and totalitarian useful idiots charging your home with machine guns. It wasn’t required. They got you do do everything for them.

They used MINDSET against you. They affected YOUR mindset. And if your mindset was weaker than theirs you complied. The mixture of psychological warfare, gaslighting and actual physical and economic discomfort was enough to make the majority bend and take the genetic serum as deep as they wanted to shove it in you.

This was easily predictable on a simple basis: At a minimum, 80% of people will not fight back at all. And in the modern era, I think that number is probably well over 90%, but let’s remain optimistic and say it is 90% “only”.

That means that 9 out of 10 people will climb into the cattle cars when they are told the concentration camps are really not so bad and it’s for their own good they need to go there.

Of that remaining 10% very few would actually take up arms even in a real “we’re coming door to door to arrest and jail and forcibly jab all the no-vaxxers”. Historically the number is somewhere between 5% and 1%.

It is true however, that if/when that level of direct conflict arrives, that 1% or 5% or whatever it is, will get some effective and practical support by much larger number of people and in fact will even be able to double or triple its ranks quickly if they achieve some strategic (morale boosting) victories. At a certain point, the straw breaks the camel’s back and then you will find no one that argues against the tip of the spear. Almost everyone will have magically now become “the good guys” again.

As an Italian, we have a special understanding of this from WW2. We started out siding with the Germans, but as the Germans began losing, we gradually became pro-Allied powers, and by the time Italy was “liberated” we had made sure to kill Il Duce ourselves, to show what good allies we were. Everyone still remembers the Germans as the evil Nazis, and the Japanese as torturing freaks, but everyone loves the Italians. Well… except the incels, they hate us for stealing all your women and then some.

But you see my point.

Now, the beauty of the fighter’s mindset is that regardless of the weapons used against him, physical or psychological, the baseline features of a fighter’s mindset remain unchanged.

And that mindset is simply this:

A total devotion to winning the fight by whatever means.

I can hear the hippies and their “honourable” counterparts saying “well… well… not by ANY means surely!”

And that is the first hurdle. Every man has a set of morals and ethics, lines he will or will not want to cross and most would be very surprised to find out just how quickly and easily they would cross those lines at a run given certain circumstances. The primary difference between a warrior’s mind and everyone else is self-knowledge.

I am under no illusions whatever about my ethical limits, as well as all the other limits, physical, intellectual, and so on.

As the Greeks used to say:

Man – Know Thyself.

I literally went to Delphi in Greece, where that statement is said to have originated with the Oracle there. You can see images of that trip in the Image Gallery. And it is the foundational statement I have right from the start in my book on Systema.

If you know yourself intimately and profoundly, if you have found yourself repeatedly in situations that went beyond your self-perceived concepts of yourself and yet you overcame them, and you learnt your true limits better, then you will have no hesitation in knowing where your personal “line” is.

I certainly have no doubts on it. You can place me into pretty much any hypothetical or real situation and a “moral dilemma” is almost certainly never going to even slow me down for a fraction of a second.

That’s point number one of mindset: Know your ethical lines.

Point number two: Know your level of combativeness.

This is to a certain degree inborn, it can be developed, curated, certainly increased and refined, but ultimately, the level of combative response is yet another fundamental thing you need to be very keenly and deeply aware of within yourself. And it does not apply just to physical confrontations. It applies to any situation that requires confrontation. It can be business, a rude guy having some road rage, or whatever. Mine is specific to circumstances and can utterly confuse even people that have known me for decades. Yet it is very simple. I react usually in a fairly de-escalating way with people or situations that are not really immediate threats, unless of course, they tickle my injustice bone, which is something rather rarefied in design and quality, hence quite rare in the modern age, which again, surprises people at odd times. In life-or-death situations or ones that can be such for people dear to me, then, well, some might pity the fools that go there, but I am not one of them. The response will be likely to be nuclear and permanent, regardless of consequences.

Point number three: Emotional Control.

If you can’t keep your eyes open the minute someone throws a punch at you, you can’t duck it effectively. If you can’t stay calm when the violence is about to kick off, you get tunnel vision and miss things. If you can’t keep thinking while fighting, you will not see the best opportunities. If you let your emotions control you, your enemies will use them to do so. Emotional control can only be increased by placing yourself in emotionally difficult situations repeatedly. It is, essentially, a desensitising process. And again, it applies to all facets of life. If you are too scared to ask a pretty girl out, you will never get a date with a pretty girl. If you force yourself to ask every pretty girl for a date, over time you will learn to adjust and not get freaked out. And eventually, asking a pretty girl for a date will have the same emotional content as drinking a cup of tea.

Point number four: Know your triggers.

Everyone has these, and you need to know precisely where they are, why they are, and be able to be non-reactive to them. Sounds impossible right? Not really. If your level of combativeness is extremely high but your emotional control is low, you will likely end up in jail later, even if you win the fight. Or, you might get the bad guy in front of you, but not his whole crew.

If on the other hand you have extremely high combativeness and also extremely high emotional control, you will react only when doing so ensures not only that you avoid punishment later, but that you get the bad guy, his crew, his family and acquaintances, and his pets too. And will have the truck with salt delivered just in time over the ashes of his entire genetic line. Having triggers doesn’t mean you have to react to them instantly.

Point number five: Patience.

This is a difficult one, and most people that (think) they know me will laugh at the idea I could teach anyone anything about patience. Keep in mind that my last employer had printed two of my sayings and pinned them up on the wall of his office under the label Giuseppe’s Sayings. They were:

  • False modesty is not a virtue, and
  • Patience is an excuse for the witless

And mostly it is. However, there are things at which my patience will wear out most everyone else. I grew up in a family of hunters, and learnt from a young age that I had a natural talent for waiting in order to get that kill shot, or find that animal, or track it. Then I worked in security and that same skill was honed when investigating people and crimes and frauds. The ability to bide your time when required, so as to get the best of your enemy, is innate in me, and I am not sure if it is genetic (I suspect it is) but as with anything, it can probably be improved upon, that said, I think a predisposition for this, if you have the other attributes too, especially combativeness, makes you a dangerous enemy.

Point number six: Speed of Variation and Improvisation.

A real fighter can instantly alter his trajectory if the conditions suddenly change or require it. This is something that has all the above elements in part, and experience and genetics as well as IQ to a certain degree all blended in, but can be dramatically improved by playing out scenarios in your head almost constantly and thinking of alternatives and situational changes. If you also train this way, it improves your ability dramatically. Systema uses many fun such “drills” that have unexpected, unorthodox components in hand to hand training, but you can use the same general attitude in (as usual) all aspects of life. It is a mixture of quick thinking, willingness to act at a moment’s notice, the ability to calculate probabilities on the fly on the basis of the multiple variables of a dynamic situation while being objective about your own abilities. The switch from patient observer to sudden striker in the event of a hunt that changes suddenly, the ability to throw your opponent off guard by doing the unexpected, all can be used in most interactions too. That chubby girl cockblocking you from her hot friend you’d like to get to know better and maybe get together with? Instead of remaining stumped or quiet at her rudely trying to show you up with inappropriate (and often untrue) public statements? Counter-attack instead.

A simple example from my debauched past need not be as drastic, you can tone it to the situation, but to her “Leave my friend alone, she has a boyfriend and is not interested in you!”

Instead of looking like a deer in headlights, you could instantly respond with “What? Oh you got it so wrong! I was only trying to speak to your hot friend in order to get close to you! I can tell YOU don’t have a boyfriend, and I’m into getting the plumper lonely ones away from the herd, you know, for the added meat when I axe murder them and cannibalise them. Come here, my soft, dear girl, do you like Chianti?” Anyone listening to this is bound to laugh, especially if they have seen the Hannibal Lecter films or series. And it also neutralises her. Of course it is also a filter for how “woke” her friend is if she freaks out at the “plumper” comment, and so on. In short, you have put the enemy off balance and at the same time undermined their position while still keeping the original target in your sights, though indirectly, for example, by turning to the pretty girl and asking with obviously feigned nonchalance “Does your boyfriend like fillet mignon? No, just you then for dinner?” The triple entendre is baked in (which I only realised long after I wrote this, during a second pass hours later to correct for spelling etc, because it is honestly the kind of sentence that just comes to me, the skill has become unconscious).

The more dangerous a situation is, the more likely that the fog of war is more, and in those cases, being able to improvise can literally mean life and death.

The above pretty much defines the mindset. Of course, resources, possibilities and so on are all important, but remember that third worlders with inferior technology by a few levels (in traveller terms), inferior equipment at all levels, and inferior training and opportunities still kicked the crap out of the most powerful military in the world. Twice. (Vietnam and Afghanistan). What they had, was a mindset that squished the American one at fifty paces with merely a glance.

So. Focus on building up your mindset. The rest will follow.

Here is a book/game I wrote to help you begin developing it and learning by playing, which is the best way to learn, how to imagine and resolve various scenarios.

An Honest Politician

About as rare as Dodo teeth, but this lady, the German EU Parliamentarian Christine Anderson, is one.

I base that on the face that her comments are unambiguous, and absolutely direct, both of which are total no-nos in government, politics and public life of the WEF puppets, and this is the reason why I am prone to thinking she is a legitimately honest politician.

With Italian Translation from the English

The Artemivsk-Bakhmut Radius

The German astronomer Karl Schwarzschild, was the first to calculate what is normally referred to as the Event Horizon, that is, the radius at which a collapsing star or black hole does not let even light escape, and as such becomes a black hole.

Karl, did this in 1916 while fighting in the trenches of WWI. He was clearly an uncommon man that could see beyond his immediate circumstances even when these were rather dire.

In any case, I would now like to bring your attention to another black hole radius: The Artemivsk-Bakhmut Radius.

This is the location in the ex-fake country called Ukraine, where one could say that either directly or indirectly, pretty much everything disappears.

About 140 billion US $ have disappeared, countless NATO weapons and Ukrainian (and some Russian) soldiers and so on have been ground to dead dust.

And it doesn’t seem it will end any time soon.

The AB Radius is gradual. It is strongest at the epicentre of the actual geographical location of the ex-city of Artemivsk-Bakhmut, where everything from men, materiel, money, possibly UFOs and God only knows what else, seems to disappear, usually in flashes of Russian artillery and drone fire, but it has radiating lines of propagating force that reach into every household of the Western Hemisphere and indeed the world.

Extracting mostly energy, money and health from the rest of the planet.

It seems to be a self-feeding mechanism.

Producing the effect is Corrupt Political Western Powers (CPWP), divided by Parasitic Foreign Impostors (PFI), multiplied by Corrupting Potential of Western Puppet-Leaders (CPWPL) which is a complicated calculation because this is a variable factor that ranges from near-infinity to beyond-infinity; that’s the left side of the formula. On the right side of the formula you have Russian Will to Survive as a Nation (RWSN), multiplied by Chinese Will to Survive as an Entity (CWSE). The parallel product of these formulae is that on the left we have a net negative number that fluctuates as a combination of the result of negative trillions of dollars multiplied by the potential loss of billions of souls, and on the right hand side a small positive number of the irrational fluctuating number known as Human Hope.

In mathematical terms then:

(CPWP/PFI) * CPWPL : RWSN * CWSE

Which reduces to:

-x Trillion USD * -y Souls : HH<0.0001%

For the non-mathematicians: Russia is not going to have a massive offensive that takes over Ukraine, because it does not help them reduce their actual enemies, the USA, and the NATO puppets being run by the deep state Satanic self-declared “elite” to a state of impotent military flaccidity and economic poverty while also fomenting huge social unrest at home, with concomitant rebellions, fragmentations and balkanisations.

On the other side, the Homoglobalists are completely incapable of doing anything other than feeding the maw of war for multiple reasons.

First of all, stopping would mean loss of profits for those of them that benefit financially from the continued war.

Secondly, it would expose even more their crimes against humanity, and it’s not as if anyone who cares doesn’t already know most of them, but because the actual in-your-face presentation of them, even to the docile, retarded, brainwashed, obese masses, is likely to cause instability to a degree even the protected “elite” might find uncomfortable.

Thirdly, it is an admission of defeat for various of the factions, be it the Jewish Messianic ones, the actual Satan worshipping Freemasons in high positions, and also their entire Wester World puppets that think they are very important people.

Fourth, there is a small but real possibility that either the winners, or the completely fed up populations of the West, may set up ropes around lampposts, guillotines in their town squares, drawing and quartering horses, or stakes to be burned at —according to cultural preferences— in order to have some popular regime change spread around the West as a whole.

And there you have it. Please be sure to keep me as the person who gave the AB Radius it’s name, if not the official discoverer of it, since I am sure several high-minded Russians have undoubtedly come to the same theorem, and may have just been too busy in a trench to publish. I have no problem sharing the glory with such physicists on the field, of course.

Thank you.

Yes, all the names mentioned are of Jews

But I am sure that’s it’s just a Cohencidence.

Probably nothing to do with the passages in the Talmud that says it’s perfectly acceptable and no sin at all to rape children under the age of 3.

The video below is only a couple of minutes long. Look at the way the Zyklons are trying to shut the prof down when he shows the links between Anarchists (antifa types), homosexuality, and pedophiles. Using unassailable facts, no less.

Maybe one in five Zyklons really is not just LGBT, but actually is a pedophile?

What say you Zyklons?

The Gay is Rising?

So… supposedly, this is what’s happening in AmeriKa

Supposedly, one in five Zyklons is some kind of sexual deviant.

I am sure the poll is completely fair and reliable like all other mainstream media news. But you Zyklons out there… what say you?

Also… from memory, GenX and every generation before that was hovering at between 0.5% to 1.5% across the entire sexual deviant spectrum, certainly until the late 90s, on this graph it’s double that or more. Again, I am sure it’s all perfectly statistically correct and true… as long as you also believe that Epstein killed himself.

Still, one wonders how the USA plans to continue controlling the rest of the planet, I think they took that “screw everybody” a bit literally and thing that strap-ons and lube are the way forward for global domination.

I don’t know, I mean it’s just my opinion, but I think the Russians, Chinese, the whole of Africa and large chunks of South America, as well as pockets of hold-outs all over Europe might just disagree a little bit.

They are the Enemy Within

A YouTube commenter starts to understand:

Gabriel Garcìa Moreno

As I’m sure you’ve realized by now, Tay Tay Marshall is no intellectual behemoth. When he saw your superchat I’m almost certain he understood that he couldn’t properly answer it. I’ve come to the conclusion that Tay Tay is an intellectual lightweight and quite likely a grifter. Man, I want to like Vigano. I pay attention to his publications and videos and have noticed that he often calls out Freemasonry and Bergoglio’s shenanigans but you’re right, at this point he must put down his foot and declare every so called Pope from John XXIII to Bergoglio a heretic and an anti-pope. God bless you. Christus Vincit! Christus Regnant! Christus Imperat!

Adam Piggott, recently wrote a blog post about the fake “priest”, the Satan-worshipping Ripperger.

Adam’s piece is a very polite and well-written one, filled with human charity and honesty. He ended it thusly:

Fr Ripperger is wrong. So I will pray for him as I continue to pray for all of the clergy who have eyes but cannot see, who have ears but cannot hear.

And of course, this makes me want to smack Adam upside the head repeatedly. “Bad Catholic! Bad!” I want to say to him, with each blow.

And I may get to do it, as I think he will come to visit soon.

Yes, yes, I know, I am the “EEEEBBILL” Kurgan, without mercy, et-cetera, et-cetera…

But let me repeat what I have been saying now for about 5 years:

  1. That fake “priest” is not to be addressed as “Father”, as that is an honorific to be used for Catholic Priests. Ripperger is not Catholic, and certainly not a priest (except perhaps of Moloch, but that’s neither here nor there). He is a knowing Satanist, yes, he is, because he is perfectly aware that Vatican II is heretical, that Roncalli was a Freemason and that the Vatican is currently filled with Freemason pedophiles, homosexual and so on. Freemasons are Satan-worshippers, and in essence, so is anyone trying to destroy the Catholic Church; which EVERY fake “cleric” of the Novus Orco is doing, directly and openly, or implicitly and subterfugeously, but in any case, they are.
  2. At BEST, he is a heretic, because in my opinion he is a never-was-catholic. He certainly was never validly ordained, nor has he ever done anything other than perform unholy sacrilegious, blasphemous, fake masses that mock our Lord. So in my opinion, he is actually an active Satanist and outright enemy of the Church, and hence God; as are ALL the fake “clergy” of the Novus Orco.

Now, if he is a Heretic, remember, as a Catholic, the correct way to behave towards him is as defined, in the infallible, ex-cathedra, on faith and morals pronouncement (which means it will remain true for all eternity) of Pope Paul the IV in his Papal Bull of the 15th of February 1559, Cum Ex Apostolato Officio, which states:

(iii) that all such individuals also shall be held, treated and reputed as such by everyone, of whatsoever status, grade, order, condition or pre-eminence he may be and whatsoever excellence may be his, even Episcopal, Archiepiscopal, Patriarchal and Primatial or other greater Ecclesiastical dignity and even the honour of the Cardinalate, or secular, even the authority of Count, Baron, Marquis, Duke, King or Emperor, and as such must be avoided and must be deprived of the sympathy of all natural kindess.

See that Adam?! DEPRIVED OF THE SYMPATHY OF ALL NATURAL KINDNESS.

So no.

The impostor, fake “priest” Satanic-inspired Ripperger is not “wrong”. He is intentionally trying to send souls to Hell. It’s not a mistake, and no Catholic is to act towards him as if it was, nor give him “the benefit of the doubt”. Because AT BEST, he is a heretic. And that is the RULE of how you treat a heretic.

Personally I think he is an active Satanist and he is intentionally trying to send souls to Hell, so I’m gonna have even less sympathy or kindness for him than I do a heretic. As far as I am concerned he is an active mass-murderer of souls. And that is what EVERY Novus Orco fake “priest” or “Bishop” is.

And the only prayers I would have for such creatures, would be that his master comes to claim him as soon as possible and rids us of his presence on this Earth.

A bit intense, Kurgan!

You say what? Well, no. Not at all. Not if you actually BELIEVE in Catholicism. Not if you are actually Catholic, and follow the Catholic rules.

What most decent human beings REALLY struggle with is to even begin to understand the level of deception and evil of the impostors. Just like they are unable to conceive of the kind of mentality that forces little children, along with their parents, to take a genetic serum that will destroy their health and kill them in a few years.

They KNOW what they are doing. They RELY on your good nature, while they pretend to be “on your side” whether that is, be it “traditionalism”, or “anti-woke”, or “republican”, or “conservative”, or whatever, but they are in reality worse than an enemy charging your home with a uniform on and a machine pistol. That guy is OBVIOUSLY your enemy. You can SEE him coming!

But the snake in your own trench, that is the real vicious enemy, that’s a far more dangerous creature. The gatekeepers are NOT your friends.

Besides, if you have read my book Reclaiming the Catholic Church, you would know, that this is precisely the modus operandi of the Carbonari/Freemasons/illuminati. The permanent instruction to the Alta Vendita (Carbonari) were found and the Pope at the time promulgated these documents to warn Catholics, and Christianity in general. And they specifically state that they are to always play both sides of the coin. They are to infiltrate the deepest and most cherished places by PRETENDING to be good men of kind and pious natures. While all the while secretly subverting, degrading, and all while gaining trust and influence. They are, remember always, servants of the Prince of Lies!

What do you think they are going to do? Play fair?

Now, I get it, you think it’s hard to be as “jaded” as I am, but you know what, it’s not true. The hardest part about seeing the truth of this situation is merely that most people are simply too good to believe how corrupt, underhanded and downright evil the impostors and gatekeepers are.

Now, I do struggle with the idea that Adam, an Australian, could ever be a decent guy, I mean… he’s Australian, come on. So that couldn’t possibly be it. That an Australian is too nice to see things as they are… absurd; obviously.

I put it down to his being too dim.

It’s true, I have a lot of dim friends. It gives me an excuse to smack them upside the head, you see. Look. We all need a hobby, don’t judge me. Besides, Kurgan head-smackings have been clinically proven to increase IQ by at least 10 to 15 points. And sometimes all the way up to 30 points, that’s 2 whole standard deviations. Sometimes they improves your looks too. At least if you have a face like Adam’s anyway.

So learn, people: ANY Novus Orco is NOT a Catholic, NOT your friend, and NOT doing or saying ANYTHING GOOD.

It’s all an act, or at best criminal negligence. Do you care which? Does it matter? Sure, it might… to God! Who is the ONLY one that can ever truly know the difference in a man’s heart. But to you and me? No. No it does not matter at all. If it walks like a heretic, talks like a heretic, preaches like a heretic, and acts like a heretic… well… guess what:

It’s your duty to treat him like a heretic!

Hollywood Fame and Glory

I can prove quite conclusively to you, within about an hour or two, less if you are a bit less brainwashed, and if you can do basic math, that the lives of the so-called “rich and famous” are a complete and utter pit of despair.

All you need to do is browse CDAN (Crazy Days and Nights) and scroll down the blog, reading the entries. If after about an hour or so of doing that and doing a quick mental guesstimate of the number of glitterati there are in the pool from which that litany of despair is taken, you will soon realise that the toll one needs to pay to enter that club is —literally— at minimum, a piece of your soul, and in many, even most cases, the entirety of it.

What CDAN does, above all, in my opinion, is list very clearly, the resulting human wreckage that a life dedicated to hedonistic materialism produces.

Most of those people are so far gone, so utterly lost, that a homeless guy who is not a drug-addict has a better shot at making a happy life for himself.

I knew this at a relatively young age, and then confirmed it when I was offered certain “tickets” to do with being involved in a tv documentary-series at various points and/or a film, both based on my book The Face on Mars. I was 26 at the time and even before these “offers” came in, I had already seen the effect of being an author with books on the shelves of the local bookshops had on “friends” and acquaintances.

The interviews I did for television and radio were absolutely geared to turn the whole thing into clickbait, and since I’m a pretty quick study and I realised the interviewer was trying to take the approach of letting me run my mouth to then edit things in some tinfoil hat fashion, I very quickly reverted to one word answers and mini-sound bytes. the result was they could not make me sound crazy, so they did what a friend of mine at the time suggested they would do, jokingly.

I explained to him the interview was a hit piece and they would try hard to make me look insane, and he laughed and said, “yeah they may morph you into an alien on TV! ha, ha, ha.”

Well, that is exactly what they did, I kid you not. When the interview aired, at one point they fade my face out and gradually faded a gray alien head over it. My friend and I couldn’t believe it and laughed ourself to tears. I was 26 and I didn’t care for these people or their lies.

An outfit that was supposed to do a 13 part documentary had only to produce an outline of the 13 part documentary, I had already lined up an investor for them and this was all they wanted. They had 2 months to do it. They produced 2 pages of incoherent A4 where they had also screwed up the major premise. I advised the investor to not deal with these clowns.

Graham Hancock plagiarised large parts of the book as well as its main concept and still got the basic premise wrong. It’s like… steal Ferrari’s plans for a fast engine and still build a crappy Mini Morris one. They aren’t even good thieves. The guy who wrote the original comics on which the film The Matrix is based more than a little, will tell you the same thing.

Elvis didn’t write his songs, though I like how he sings them, and so do many others. Everything in the entertainment world is basically a lie. And usually also very gay; when it’s not also pedophile infested.

Graham Hancock certainly made a lot more money than I ever will from my work, with “his” stolen, then half-assed-executed ideas. And sure, that can irk a person somewhat, but you know what, when I confronted him face to face on it in Cape Town, his demeanour was the one of an apologetic, scared, cardboard-cut-out of a “man”. He apologised, blamed his ghost-writers and “complimented” me on my astonishing and brilliant work. He was a middle-aged journalist of supposed world-renowned fame, I was I think 27 at the time, had little or no money and did karate on an almost daily basis and worked as an armed bodyguard/security specialist and sold computers now and then when I could.

And I wouldn’t have traded his life for mine for any amount of money on the planet. I could then, and I still can now, look in the mirror and know that whatever errors I made in life, they were honest ones, and that despite all my faults, and they are many, I, at least, did not become whatever subspecies of cowardly, underhanded, sneaky, slithering animal people like that become. My brother and others were more enraged than I ever was by such occurrences. Which makes sense. They saw only the surface loss of what generally gets perceived as money, fame, and glory.

But I got to see the people that supposedly had or created this money, fame and glory. And this is what I saw, time and again:

The fame was a net negative. People wanted to be with you, whether as friends or sex partners, based on your fame. They had no idea, who you are, nor cared. the scary thing about this was that it wasn’t limited to gold-digging whores. In fact it was something that affected roughly the same percentage of people that decided to take the genetic serum or buy into the lie of the rona. Men wanted to be my friend and women wanted to bear my children, because I had a book on the shelves of the local book shops and did signing events. Or because they heard me interviewed on the radio or saw me on TV in the UK or, the USA, or in one case, saw my book briefly on CNN apparently (I never saw it myself but several people told me they had in a brief mention).

What becomes absolutely obvious then is that most human beings do not live, love, or care about the person they are with, perhaps marry and even have children with. No. They do not. They care about the idea about them they have in their head of them. Or they later end up hating the idea they have about them in their head. It is absolutely rare that they even glimpse the reality of who or what you are even if you spend decades with them.

In the modern era, this “disease” is a lot worse than it ever was in the past before television, the internet and mobile brainwashing and attention destroying machines we call “phones”.

Seeing this firsthand, noticing a girl you might have thought of as attractive and even intelligent if you had met her under different circumstances, and then noting how she is so transparently offering herself as some kind of sacrificial sex toy, purely in order to have the “thrill” of having had a “famous” person inside her, well… I know I am the minority perhaps in this, but I assure you, it is depressing. It destroys a certain aspect of innocence that makes life easier and more beautiful, and is hard to live happily without.

And that’s just the “fame” part.

And if you did sleep with such a girl, chances are, that after a while (or maybe only after minutes if you’re no good in bed) she would too feel empty, and disappointed, and lacklustre, because her fantasy of who you are and how her life might become is a fairy tale. As much as the one you might have told yourself if you’d met her as a nobody at a party and saw how pretty and quick-witted she appeared. Only to realise later it was just a facade, she is not smart, or quick-witted, she just learnt a routine of things to do and say at parties.

That, right there, the shabby feeling of mild despair that grows on you if you do take the ticket, if you do reach for the “glory”? That is the real “glory”.

The fame makes you a cartoon caricature and the glory turns out to be dust and emptiness. I at least was wise enough to not indulge in either.

The money sure can be useful, but it invariably comes with those two strings attached, and no amount of money on the planet is worth that. Not to me anyway.

It is possible, to get at least some of the money and dodge the “fame” and the “glory” and if you are smart, you can even manage a certain level of “fame” in a way that it doesn’t harm you, but it takes uncommon firmness of mind, courage, and not a little luck, or fate, or divine providence, whatever you choose to call it. In short, it is very rare, and probably has a cost anyway, as all roads do.

All of these despairing things, are made a thousand or a million times worst if you are alone in it all. Even family and close friends can turn, like zombies in a horror movie, becoming infected and turning on you with those soulless, dead eyes. Imagine your own parents or children becoming swallowed by the despair and materialism of “fame” and “glory”, or, much more often, your wife, or husband.

And where, in a world like the one of today, do you find a wife or husband that is not ready to jump neck-deep into the mire of “fame” and “glory” given a half a chance? Especially for those who grew up with the internet as a done thing?

There is no easy answer, but I assure you that whatever difficulties I faced or will face in life, I would always choose them over the ones that come with Hollywood level “fame” and “glory”.

I made my life an exercise in living between the cracks and not getting caught by what Vadim Zeland calls “Pendulums”, and just to be safe, I never tried to “transurf” the waves more than a tiny little bit here or there, (long before I read anything Vadim wrote) because in this game of life, one big wipeout is enough to reduce you to shark-food. And even as it is, I took my wipeouts, and they were hard enough, and perhaps many would not have survived them, but I did; again, by my will, but also a lot of divine providence and grace, which the lost often call luck or fate.

My problem has always been the same one.

My DNA, as far back as I can find information on my ancestors, has the curiosity of the explorer in it, and the fearlessness of the fool. It is a dangerous combination, and I do not advise it to anyone. I certainly hope my son is wiser than I was, but already, I see in him, the brutal honesty he has with himself, the fearlessness in the face of danger, at times due to innocence, and other times due to calculated observation. And the calm, considered, approach to things that might be dangerous, which he has not yet investigated.

How to guide such a boy?

There is no simple or clear path, because these are the qualities of a man, and ultimately, as men know, we are born alone, and we die alone, and every choice we make, every effort, every despair, every victory and every crushing defeat, is ours, and ours alone, no matter who loves us and may help us, or who hates us and may try to destroy us. All we can rely on is providence, God’s grace and our tiny, but eternal flame of faith inside ourselves, regardless of if we know it exists in there or not. He has it, and perhaps all I can do is try to make him aware of it consciously. Maybe, if I can help him be less mute than I have been to myself, he might be able to more readily rely on that fire in the centre of his heart even when he is alone and tired and scared, and I am no longer around to do what I can.

Maybe, if I train him even as I play with him, he can learn to roll with the punches of life and pop up nearby and unexpectedly, and turn things to his advantage then too.

And above all, I hope I can do a good job of showing him the decay and deceit and lies and illusion of “fame” and “glory” and instead choose the real Glory of, and for, God, and Honour, and the ones you Love. And to know fame is a lying whore riddled with disease and fancy clothes, and make-up; and real fame is the trust and loyalty of your friends and your loved ones, and nothing else compares.

And hopefully, in the Fake New World that is being prepared for him, either we are able to collapse the shit out of it before it gets off the ground, or there will in any case remain a way for him to navigate the “pendulums” and “surf” the “waves” remaining as best as possible, untouched by the filth of the sewage from which they are formed.

The lives of the “rich and famous” are a preview of the Hell that awaits us all if we don’t wake up and return to what really matters: The virtues of Truth, Honesty, Honour, Fortitude, Courage, and Faith.

Except it will be worse for you will not even have the villas and the retinue of concubines and the drugs, because you will not even have the money to distract you from the despair.

So.

Choose your path wisely, friend, and support that which is real, and see through that which is fake, and gay, and Satanic.

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