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A Strange Hope

UPDATE: One of my biggest detractors sent me a link to this video where the Bill Brockbrader guy is said to be a complete fake and worse, a pedophile. I didn’t do any research on Bill, and as I said in today’s stream, I was never a fan of Kerry Cassidy, so I don’t know what’s real or not, but I do know that Kerry Cassidy did interview a bunch of people that are clearly frauds. Whether she is involved and knows or not about Bill Brockbrader being a pedo etc, I don’t know. At any rate, the short and the long of it is this:

  1. If Bill is a pedo, he deserves to be burnt at the stake regardless of whether his story is fake or absolutely real. My stance on that will never change, if I become Emperor, burning pesos at the stake will be the first law I resurrect and put in place.
  2. Even if everything Bill says is a lie, which is entirely possible, my personal data points regarding not just Looking Glass, but the reality of precognition, telepathy, the effectiveness of prayer, the aether, the work of Harold Aspden and so on remain valid, and I came up with those long before I ever heard of Bill or Looking Glass. So the overall theme of this post remains unchanged other than for the point that you can eject everything related to Bill.
  3. The overall theme of keeping a faithful belief in the good and our being able to reach it is important and I have personally lived through the reality of this for decades, so the baseline message does not change either, and neither does the possible route I present of how we might get there in real time.
  4. The guy in the video says Crenshaw the one-eyed politician is a guy who will get the truth out there… and on that basis alone, his own ideas become somewhat suspect to me.

As always, we can conclude a few things either way.

First of all, listen to everyone but always make your own mind up, that has always been my advice in life to literally everyone and isn’t going to change.

Secondly, don’t sweat the enemies you have in life, sometimes they unintentionally prove useful in their efforts to criticise you.

Thirdly, even if you remove the entire Bill Brockbrader stuff and indeed the whole Looking Glass stuff from this post, the overall message does not change, because as I tried to point out at the start it’s based on physics. Physics very few people know about and even less people understand fully, but actual physics nonetheless, and the metaphysical aspects are actually also supported by this physics. Nevertheless, it is important to keep things straight, so you need to be aware of the critique.

This is gonna be a weird one, and if you are not familiar with some of my theories on physics and metaphysics, you might even go on to think it’s unhinged. Those of you who have used the Search Me function on the right and typed in key words like Maxwell, aether, Peter Garajev, solitonic waves, and Harold Aspden, might at least give me the benefit of the doubt.

Paradoxically, so might those few of you that have read my pen and paper Role Playing Game: Surviving the Current Zombie Apocalypse.

After describing the situation for that game, marginally more dystopia than the present day, I had a section titled Light at the beginning of the Tunnel.

It read as follows:

The current situation is undeniably bleak. However, there are at least three separate scenarios that give us hope that there is not just a way to survive the current times, but to get out of them in a way that will provide an awakening of conscience and empathy that will render the Earth much closer to a paradise than it has ever been. Personally, I presume this will take place only after all the evil responsible persons involved have been hung by the neck to the nearest lamppost or burnt at the stake as the demonworshippers they are,[1] but some may have more optimistic views. In any case, I present them here as a way for you to have a clear sight of the fact that all is, most assuredly, not lost. Nor must you ever act or believe as if it is. 


[1] After a fair trial by the Holy Inquisition, of course. 

The three settings were, in turn:

The End Times (really only “good” if you’re a Sedevacantist Catholic of absolute Faith AND are really prepared and really lucky), The Not Quite End Times (really not fun, but you might survive if you are, again, a Sedevcantist Catholic, prepared, lucky and dangerous), or… Looking Glass.

Which I copy below in full for your edification.

Looking Glass: For those of you who harbour a hatred of religion, were raised on the Kool-Aid of I Fucking Love Science! Faceborg Groups Idiocy, or possibly were molested by a Novus Orco or Protestant “priest” and thus have resolved to drive a stake through the heart of anyone professing to be a Christian, or, yet again, are simply agnostic and have not yet found an overarching truth about the intelligence behind creation that cold logic and basic math indicate must exists,[1] this may be the most interesting perspective yet. 

In the early to mid-1990s there were various “disclosures” about all sorts fantastic things. 

Satanic ritual abuse of children was one of them. The Franklin scandal got swept under the carpet as magistrates, Judges, Police, Politicians and wealthy elite were all involved. Then it was relegated to the fevered imaginings of… you guessed it: Conspiracy Theorists. As were the scandals involving most of the Belgian parliament in a child sex trafficking ring. And the one involving most of the British Parliament and all of the BBC with Jimmy Saville at its centre. 

There were UFO disclosures. There were Alien Hypothesis disclosures. One guy with an Italian name even released a book called The Face on Mars that posited, from a coldly scientific perspective, the idea that Mars had been destroyed by an interplanetary war and the survivors had been worshipped as Gods and Demigods on our Planet. 

Various military or supposed military experts were crawling out of the woodwork discussing everything from Roswell to secret Nazi bases in Antarctica and weird genetic experiments. All, of course, were conspiracy theories

There was a lot of information about HAARP, and Chem Trails, and MK Ultra, and the CIA, and gun running, and cocaine. All conspiracy theories. Even when they turned out to be true. 

And mostly, they all turned out to be true. 

At any rate, one of these conspiracy theories was about something called Looking Glass. The premise was that a system of quantum computers as well as possibly some paranormal technology linked to precognition had been created to predict various possible outcomes of the future. 

One such military contractor that was involved with the project became a whistle-blower and stated that the powers that be that got the reports on the possible outcomes, which we can assume today are synonymous with the Evil Ones, had become very worried. 

Apparently, no matter what scenario they presented to the Looking Glass technology, a result always came back that they would lose control of the sleeping, teeming masses of humanity. No matter what they did, there was a Great Awakening of consciousness coming and nothing could stop it. No matter what wars, or economic crashes, or diseases, or misery or other technology they would release, the end result would always be the same. An enormous shift in human consciousness that would result in unparalleled freedom for every human being on Earth. This was, as I say, the early to mid 1990s. 

The whistle-blower described it as a chess game between two masters that both realised one player would win. It was inevitable, but the game was not yet over. The only options open to the losing player was to either resign now, or try and play every possible delaying move to the end even though the outcome was a foregone conclusion. This way the loser could cause as much damage and take as many pieces as he could off the eventual winner. 

Some 30 years later, the Looking Glass project would seem to be playing out its death throes. Keep in mind that the UN Agenda 2021 and 2030 which outlined much of the events that started to take place in 2019, were supposed to take another decade to play out. And now it had all been ramped up suddenly. Making all the puppet governments, especially of the Western world, dance like monkey in so obvious a fashion that even many of the people of average intelligence began to see through the cracks. 

Why the sudden warp-speed on the serum to every man woman and child? So rapidly introduced that the massive death they caused was eventually impossible to hide. Once everyone knew a few friends and relatives dropping dead of serum shot “complications,” which were really the designed and intended consequences, the medical establishment would cover up for it, along with the perennial mouthpiece of the indemoniated, the Mass Media. 

Still, over time, the amount of people dying after taking the serum shot became so pronounced it started to affect national statistics. And the news was not good. The higher the percentage of the population that took the serum, the higher the overall mortality rate. The serum was deadly to young, healthy people, not just the elderly and it was sterilising to the females. 

But despite all the damage the forced serum mandates were causing, if Looking Glass was not just a fable, no matter what they do, they will, in the end, lose. So, you just have to hold out long enough. Just like in the other two possibilities above. 


[1] Seriously, the million monkeys on a million typewriters theory is abject nonsense. Do the actual math. There is a better chance of the Sun blinking out to the other side of the universe and back every time you snap your fingers a million times in a row than the universe being created by random chance. There is just not enough time in the created Universe for it to have happened. It’s not even a stretch. It’s just flat out impossible. 

Here is the Youtube video where this came from. The stuff about Project Looking Glass starts at about 1 hour and 55 minutes in or so. But I would go in at about 1 hour and 47 minutes and listen to ten minutes before looking glass starts too. It’s worth it.

This interview was done in January 2012, and given he is first discussing things I absolutely am sure are real (space fleet, bases on Mars and the Moon, and so on) and I have been writing about since the mid 1990s, I find him fairly reliable and not crazy, and he does not appear insane to me either. Whatever you do, listen at least to the very last minute of this video too, it may be the most important bit of all.

But all this is preamble to my point.

From a “miracle” perspective, sure, anything can happen. From an End Days perspective, Jesus will come back on a white horse and trample all the bad guys. Ok.

But from a purely secular perspective, assuming what we are actually going towards is The Not Quite End Times and project Looking Glass and the event that the bad guys can’t avoid is the Great Awakening, instead of their planned Great Reset Dystopia, what would that look like? What set of circumstances might make such a supposed new age of prosperity, peace and goodness happen?

And to answer THAT question, I thought of a few possible things that could or maybe need to happen for such a situation to take place.

So… crazy introduction to the topic? Absolutely, but bear with me…

One thing that I think the Globohomo Pedovores have utterly miscalculated on, is that their desperate attempts to remain in control, have tragically backfired.

Any of us that have a functioning brain and kept at least half an eye on things have known since 2014 that the Usual Suspects wanted to destroy Russia via Ukraine “regime change”. And that Ukraine had zero chance against Russia in 2020. And shortly after the SMO started, that NATO and America too, also had —and continue to have— no chance against the Russia/China block.

But did you have “Israel tries to wipe out Palestine at the end of 2023” on your bingo card?

And Houtis with the equivalent of TL7 technology are crippling the US/Israel empire/alliance of TL9 military (Tech Level is a term from the Traveller RPG)?

So… how does the current atmosphere that is being daily fomented towards fear, hatred, chaos, starvation, economic collapse, and so on make you think we are heading towards?

Now, according to Bill Wood (real name Bill Brockbrader) what you ultimately really believe in your heart of hearts tends to become reality. I have had this sense internally, very strongly since I was a child.

[This is where the metaphysics, solitonic waves and so on comes into it… in other words, it’s not about me and my important feelings… it’s about how the vary foundations of reality work]

I was not worried in 1986 when the various predictions of the End of the World —supposedly based on Nostradamus— were prevalent. Nor when the Y2K catastrophes were being stated, or the 9/11 tower attacks by the deep state and blamed on the phantomatic Muslim terrorists happened, and even when the more recent Covid bio-engineered scam for the use of deadly genetic serums, did not concern me too much.

The fact is, that even BEFORE I became a hardcore Catholic with a strong faith, I have ALWAYS had a sense inside of me that whatever apocalypse comes my way, I am simply NOT the type to go quietly into the night. And if there is any type of possibility of survival, I am very likely to make it and then even thrive.

AFTER my becoming Catholic, it is an absolute reality that my faith has been tested in the scariest, most painful, deep ways. And while I at times wondered if I could survive some of these events, the reality is that it has increased my personal faith in a good outcome to a level that a few years ago I would have thought of as being not accessible to human beings, or at least certainly not to me, mere mortal.

So, while I already had the mindset that Bill Wood/Brockbrader mentions in that last minute of video above, and I would have had it regardless of me ever being aware of anything he discussed, project Looking Glass, or anything else, and while I absolutely advise you to have the same attitude, to reject the fear they are bombarding you with daily and the anger they try to provoke in you second by second, I also wanted to point out, what I think might happen in the worldly world of things.

What would happen if one of the Arab countries around Israel decided all of a sudden: Screw this. Let’s wipe out the Jews.

America, driven by the Jews who run it, would undoubtedly launch warships, planes, bombing campaigns… but… if they shrink from using nukes, there is just no boots on the ground they can place in that area of the world that would be effective at all. The US with a scant half-million soldiers or so, can’t even muster enough active troops to take on Russia, much less China, and not the Arabs in the Middle East either.

And if they did use nukes, it’s very likely Russia would too. And given the Americans literally have nothing that can stop the Russian hypersonic missiles, it would mean that in a nuclear war America is not quite as “safe” on the other side of the Atlantic as it might think. Especially since the Russians have already floated a few Russian nuclear subs along the USA’s coastline in a not too subtle silent statement that said: We can nuke you in your home too.

But in any case, the Americans simply don’t have the numbers for a land war in the Middle East.

Even if they brought the draft back, who would actually obey it?

And the soldiers they DO have now are partly MS13 Mexican gangs looking for citizenship, soyboys that will melt in the sun, trannies and homosexuals whose main aim in life is to get “shot” into daily, but would also get shot into out there in a far more penetrating experience they bargained for, and sub 85 IQ grunts that will likely cause more “friendly fire” deaths than enemy casualties.

And if one Arab country decides to go all in at Israel, the other Arab countries might join in too, logically assuming that the fastest they wipe out Israel from the map, the sooner the “Americans” have nothing left to fight for. And if the Arab world wipes out most of the Jews in Israel, and the truth about the various practices of those people comes more and more to light, as it has been doing for the last four months, other people around the world, be they Muslims or something else, might decide the time is ripe for solving the “Jewish Question” once and for all.

And if most of the Jews on the planet get wiped out, it is a virtual certainty that it will not happen bloodlessly or easily, or that it would be fun for pretty much anyone, but… if it happens, a lot of the puppet-masters of the American deep-state, and therefore also of the various European satrapies on a leash too, would begin to no longer have anyone on the other end of the leash.

Concepts like usury and fiat money might begin to be questioned in light of the sudden vacuum created by the bloody removal of a people that historically have created both of those mechanisms. And with those questionings might come the swing of the pendulum in the other direction on a lot of other things. Feminism, Transgenderism, the whole LGBT agenda, child trafficking, the reinstatement of the death penalty for various crimes and so on.

In short, the bloody and ugly wars/genocides and so on that may happen and that potentially could start tomorrow and be sudden and drastic beyond anyone’s imagination, could lead to a situation where nations return to being ethnically simple. Germans in Germany, Russians in Russia, and possibly even Venetians in Venice and Scots in Scotland, and so on. And such nations, unhampered by artificially created debt, with a reset of the very concept of fiat money, and a festooning of lampposts with current politicians, making way for less corrupt, WEF lapdogs, the Klaus Schwabs, Bill Gates, and so on of the world cemented permanently into their expensive underground bunkers, might very well begin to create a prosperity and human progress hereby unseen yet. And it would be founded on the creation of wealth based on the production of each man and nation, instead of the creation of a debt to serve, by each man and nation.

If that happened, if we didn’t already have bases on the Moon (I am sure we already do) we would put some there within a decade.

In short, a nasty, vicious, brutish war that no one expected, might wipe out Israel and the diaspora, and global financing and all things relating to the very concept of wealth and money and how it works, might just get redefined almost overnight. Other professions that would be almost instantly affected too would be politicians in general, the mass media, journalists and so on. In countries where honest but terrible men (because willing to do the unpleasant tasks of taking out bad people) came to power, journalists, lawyers, corrupt judges and so on, would be swinging right next to the politicians in rapid succession.

So, given the above, it would certainly begin to look like The End Times, but then it would revert, and a decade or two later it may very well come close to a paradise on (and off) Earth, meaning it was only The Not Quite the End Times.

So, anyway, that’s my take on a possible outcome that in a decade or two might make life on Earth a lot nicer than it is now, but also a lot nicer than it has ever been in the entire history of our species that we know about.

Life’s Biggest Paradox

The recent posts on IQ, the intelligence gap, etcetera on Vox’s blog and his Sigma Game one too, along with a number of other recent considerations I have been mulling over with regard to the general malaise of this planet’s humanity both as a whole and as considered in their multiply fractal subdivisions right down to the individual, have got me to a point where I may begin to try to articulate a concept that I have been living with most of my life.

In simple terms it goes something like this:

Broadly speaking, almost nothing is really relevant, and yet, your life is absolutely relevant (regardless of whether you are aware of it, reach anything like your full potential in various facets of life and so on).

If you have read my post on violence and gunfights, you may be able to better understand what I mean. The long and the short of that post was that pretty much 95% of everything related to those two topics (assault/violence/gunfights) that you come across is bullshit.

The fact is that even if you train obsessively, unless you kinda go looking for it, the likelihood of you being in an actual gunfight are pretty close to nil. The chances of you being in some violent altercation are somewhat higher, but you can mostly negate those by the simple expedient of increasing your situational awareness in general even if you take zero time training in martial arts or using a firearms under stressful situations.

In the event that you DO end up in a gunfight, again, most of all the detailed supposedly pivotal information provided by armchair and paper experts, but even, too often, by supposedly highly trained “operators” is, again, mostly almost entirely irrelevant. If you can operate your weapon effectively under duress and hit a head-sized object repeatedly at twenty feet or less almost all the time, you are in the top 0.1% of people when it comes to being effective in a gun fight. The calibre or type of gun you use being a minor consideration at best.

Now, extend that sort of general realisation to pretty much everything else.

Unless you are in Ukraine or Gaza, the wars in those places are essentially mostly irrelevant to you. Not completely of course, because your petrol and heating costs go up, and so on, but the impact is not immediately drastic for 99% of the population on Earth compared to those who are actively involved. If you are generally prepared for the apocalyptic economic collapse that maths says will happen at some point, you are well ahead of the curve with respect of most of the rest of humanity. Obsessing about every detail of those conflicts can only lead to added anxiety and lowered immune systems without providing you any further benefit.

Given this overall philosophy, life could easily become seen as a futile exercise and one could easily slip into depression. That too is a trap, because while it is true that 95% of literally everything is bullshit, there is that 5% that makes it all worth it. And it would do so even if it was only 1%.

I always excelled at my job when I was in the corporate rat race and outperformed every financial target that was expected of me, even in those jobs where I was ultimately fired. And yes, I was “let go” on a number of occasions. And an even higher number of times I walked away on my own. How is it possible, you say that I double the expected profit margins and yet get “let go”? I must be lying, or missing out some part of the story, right? Not really. The only part of the story I am missing out is that several times I uncovered either outright fraud or incompetence within the higher ups. I didn’t even make it public for the most part, but the higher ups were aware I was aware. And they were also aware I was not corruptible. The idea a person would not either join them nor be against them necessarily, threatened them instantly (which is understandable).

My work in the UK was never seen by me as a “career”. If I had viewed it that way and applied myself that way, I would undoubtedly be a very wealthy person. That route however would have required a level of internal repression of my basic nature that made the prospect absolutely intolerable to me. I simply saw it as a job. In fact, as a job with a specific firm that would last as long as it lasted. Several years in the best cases, a few weeks in the worst cases. When I did my job, I did it very well and I put as much effort into it as needed to ensure I did outperform every target they had for me. I could do that precisely because it wasn’t that important to me. I am honest and I was hired to do a job so I did it well, but the job itself was not particularly interesting or meaningful to me. I took my satisfactions where I could and so on, and it’s nice to have a nice portfolio of prestigious jobs behind me, but I was perfectly happy being a mercenary that understood the value of both being a team member in a good team, or working independently when required.

I mention this to try and explain the perspective that most of life is filled with irrelevancies. Even the big events, while meaningful to you and some certainly will feel or even be life or death events from your perspective, are ultimately, in the scheme of things, not all that big a deal.

Your divorce and family implosion is a huge deal to you and your children, of course, and yet, most divorces are survived somehow. The culture is going to crap mostly everywhere, and yet you are generally comfortable enough as the world goes to Hell in a handbasket. From a bird’s eye view, very few things matter, and those that do are often things most people have very little control over.

So, if you have this perspective, I wanted to share with you my method for absolutely avoiding nihilistic despair, because I see people, especially younger people, falling into this absolute trap of thinking that since life is so “bad” nothing really matters. That is a mistake, a big, big error and one you should never make.

So here is my recipe:

  • Never, ever, assume the global is the personal and vice versa
  • Find the level of “resolution” that is important to you for different aspects of life and operate there. For example:
    • My professional work was relevant to me as maybe an 8 bit grayscale arcade game. You can still enjoy it and do well at Prince of Persia in monochrome, but you will not cry tears of despair if you need to switch to another 8 bit monochrome game like Bubble Bobble.
    • My personal life was always in full 8k colour and maximum level graphic card importance to me, though it had many facets and perspectives and within it each facet and perspective had a generally high level of resolution but not all had the highest resolution setting.
  • Have a compelling future. Without a target, something to aim for, an idea that motivates you to get out of bed in the morning, life can be misery, so, create something to work towards. And yet…
  • Be flexible in the extreme towards that future goal, because life invariably will throw monkey wrenches, the whole monkey, and the whole monkey’s troop with their monkey wrenches and also a few grenades in whatever plan you make. Life is essentially war, and as Clausewitz supposedly said, no plan survives contact with the enemy. This does not mean you are a butterfly with never solid targets, but rather the opposite, that whatever happens, and whatever route-changes you need to make, including drastic ones, you nevertheless continue heading towards the same goal from whatever unlikely position you end up finding yourself. The truth is that many high-minded concepts are usually extremely unlikely to happen in one or even two years, but relentless action in a specific direction almost always produces effective results over say 20 years.

I can attest to that “20 years” concept in a number of fields, where my interest was always high. In some cases I achieved a level of understanding or competence that then resulted in me deciding I had achieved what I wanted in that respect and then moved on to other interests, and in some cases the interest remains or even deepens and will continue to do so until death. A few examples (not to boast, but to give examples to those who might be new readers here as the numbers increase regularly):

  • Astronomy – I figured out the real history of Humanity to a previously unrealised degree, what happened on Mars and probably in other places of our Solar system to a degree that everyone else is still catching up to, including those who admitted plagiarising some of my work. I have reached a level of understanding of this that is sufficient for me to not devote much time to it now, primarily because my children and other endeavours occupy me and interest me more. Left to my own devices in a bubble universe, I would probably continue to explore this topic endlessly. And I still dream of building my own mini observatory.
  • Martial Arts – At age 54, and with a farm to try to get into some if not profitable at least break-even production level, 5 children and other things to do too, my interest for physically training with other people is not zero, but again, other priorities come into effect. If I won the lottery tomorrow and I could have my own little dojo build next to the house, I would happily entertain regular training with others, preferably not as teacher (unlikely, given the location) or at least, if I am to teach, so that I can also train with the guys while doing so. But as it is, my training today is mostly along a different route, which involves more generic concepts, like overall health, situational awareness on a daily basis and weapons training.
  • Catholicism – Having been a Zen Agnostic until age 43, so given only some ten years of study on it, I am still a relative “novice” at being a Catholic (compared to my own somewhat obsessive-compulsive standards, though I surpass many supposed “professional” theologians at understanding the dogma, application of it, history and realities of Catholicism) and the lessons in it, like those of martial arts, are infinite, so I think in some way this topic will continue to deepen for me with time.
  • Hypnosis – Having done and studied this deeply for nearly 20 years now, this remains a fascinating topic, though in deepening it, some related aspects have probably taken a front-seat, even if directly related to hypnosis, like the neurology and physiology of the brain as well as aspects of the mind, electromagnetic fields we all have, and other aspects related to mirror neurones and so on, all fasciante me and continue to be of interest.

Those are just my “hobbies” so to speak, my most important topics relate to relationships with women and ultimately marriage, relationships with my children, and loved ones, and relationships with my friends and the things we can achieve if we work together on some things we care about.

I certainly am not short of things that keep my interest despite me being acutely aware of the hellscape we live in and the mutant wastelands we are surrounded by, with roaming radioactive mutants, polluted skies and rabid zombies, along with gay, mentally ill, would-be “overlords” that want to destroy people like me down to the very last DNA strand.

Before I was Catholic I kept myself busy this way and never fell into despair. After becoming Catholic, not only is despair impossible, but I am at times mildly euphoric as I recognise that however hard things may temporarily seem from any given perspective of the day, eventually, due course, whether I see it myself with my own eyes or not, victory, for our side, is absolutely inevitable.

I hope therefore, to have given a few of you reading this some positive concepts to think and act on.

Catholics and Sex

As regular readers of this blog know, I am not exactly the spiritual guy to go to for correct advice on the Catholic perspective on sex.

I don’t actually have any issue with the Catholic position on sex, I believe it is indeed the best way for a married couple to relate to each other.

Thanks to Adam for this video, which he posted at his blog a little while back, and which I present here below:

It is definitely one of the better discussions I have seen on the topic, even though it is clear both are Novus Orco believers, so, I do take everything they say with a pinch of salt. It may be of interest to readers here that I give the video high marks, because my position on sex in Catholicism has at times been seen as wrong, or perhaps leading people to sin, or something along those lines, so, if you had a rather debauched sex life, as I did for most of my life, it might interest you to see the interview, since I found it very well done for the most part.

Given my first 40 plus years of sexual experiences prior to becoming a Catholic I think it’s fair to say that it wasn’t going to be an easy transition. And there are some aspects of the theology behind it that I find difficult to reconcile with logic from a spiritual perspective. Nor is sex the only area I have this with, just because I am Catholic does not mean I don’t think about these things. For example, my perspective on Confession is that at a practical level it makes you into a better person, so it is a definitely good thing overall, and there is no reason not to do it or not to have it, but the idea that God would not be aware of my sin, or conversely, send to Hell despite my genuine repentance and atonement to the best of my ability if I did not manage to go to confession before I drop dead, is, to me, at the very least extremely unlikely, and honestly, I think erroneous. Nevertheless, if everyone said “oh that’s not how it works” pretty soon you’d get… well… Protestantism; because humans without rules are for the most part, no better than cattle or sheep without a Shepard to keep them in line.

Similarly, I have no problem with the Church’s teaching on sex, which in a nutshell (forgive the somewhat “scandalous” pun) is as follows:

  • No contraception, ever, of any kind, except for NFP (Natural Family Planning) which in the related video starts around 1 hour 30 minutes or so and is well explained.
  • No homosexuality.
  • No refusal of sex from either spouse other than for serious reason, like illness, the potential duty to NOT have any more children, for whatever reason, and so on. The concept here is not that you are the other person’s sex slave, but rather that marriage itself is the gifting of yourself to the other person bodily and your body is literally now their property and vice versa. That, along with the reason of producing children, is literally a fundamental aspect of marriage. This of course is seen as evil, rape-adjacent, sexual slavery from all the degenerate feminists, but it is spelt out very clear in Corinthians 7: “The husband should meet his wife’s sexual needs, and the wife should do the same for her husband. The wife doesn’t have authority over her own body, but the husband does. Likewise, the husband doesn’t have authority over his own body, but the wife does. Don’t refuse to meet each other’s needs unless you both agree for a short period of time to devote yourselves to prayer. Then come back together again so that Satan might not tempt you because of your lack of self-control.” The level at which a man or woman understands this passage, in my experience, is pretty much indicative of their level of spiritual understanding of sex and intimacy in marriage.

Modernised women have now been “taught” for almost 100 years, that using their bodies to withhold sex from their husbands is “obviously” their “right” and the reality of it is that it has been “weaponised” to essentially cow men into a kind of sex-starved submission.

Even in my pre-Catholic days, I found that there was broadly speaking (and I will generalise a lot here) two types of women:

Those who instinctually understood that using sex as a bargaining tool in a relationship (other than perhaps as a joke in some role-play) was a despicable way to act, and never indulged in it.

Then there were the others, who, as my brother once crudely put it, thought their pussy had the key to an actual spaceship in it (he knew I cared nothing for gold if I could just get access to a small hyperspace capable starship!) and limiting access to it in order to get what they wanted (regardless if it was some specific (and usually unnatural) behaviour from me, or more crudely, material things) was how they operated. This second type of woman tried that tactic with me precisely once. Because the minute they tried it, the relationship was instantly and permanently over. Their shock at this reaction, which was delivered calmly and with absolute finality, was always somewhat amusing. And I can’t recall an instance where they did not then (sometimes immediately) try to reverse the situation, but there was never any coming back from it. A woman that behaved that way was in a space mentally that I wanted nothing to do with, and I strongly advise all men to take a similar approach in this regard. It’s nothing to do with “needing” sex so desperately, or being “angry” at the lack of it, and so on. It is to do with the very foundational issue of how she sees sex, intimacy and indeed marriage as a whole and in context.

Frankly, I find an actual prostitute that says it will cost X amount for a set time to be with her sexually, to be less offensive to the entire concept of intimacy than a woman that uses sex as a tool to “control” or manipulate a man. And similarly, I find any man that submits to such behaviour to be unworthy of being called a man.

There was also another type of woman, and these were those that unfortunately had been sexually abused, and given the numbers, it is inevitable that I came across everything from incest to gang-rape. One positive aspect of it was that as far as I know, every woman I was with that had that happen, felt comfortable enough with me to share it, and a second positive aspect is that, again, in I think almost all cases, the resulting physicality between us, helped them resolve many issues.

There was also, a notable example or two of women that had been sexually abused (rather extremely, really) who, while not at all shy or withholding sexually, at least with me, did have certain difficulties, and occasional really strange behaviours, and I am not referring to various kinks, which can be understandable, but I mean sudden bouts of sadness, depression and so on. These were more difficult aspect to improve rapidly, but in any case, open and honest communication always improved things for them, and did so even in their subsequent relationships, which they did let me know about in most cases.

Now, setting aside the cases where sexual abuse was present, and given our secularised approach to sex in today’s day and age, it is interesting to note that the women that were most balanced sexually, instinctively never treated sex as a bargaining chip.

It is a quite fascinating topic really, and one that older women (grandma aged ones) with successful families that are happy and well-balanced will (if you have their confidence) unashamedly tell you that their husbands were never turned away from their bodies. Conversely, a lot of supposedly “Catholic” women, especially in Anglo-Saxon countries, will be prudish and miserly with their bodies even from their husbands.

The women have been taught this is their God-given right as a “strong independent woman”, their “dignity” as a human being and not being a sex object and so on. Totally inverting the reality of the issue.

It is precisely because sex has become transactional and objectified in the extreme, that most people have absolutely no idea of what an actually properly intimate sexual act can feel like, or even is, that they assume and “teach” that as with any disposable property, you have to “work” to get it. An analogy might be making your four year old “work” before he can get access to eating food for his dinner. It is an absurd inversion of the concept of a sexual relationship, as much as making your little child work for his food would be an inversion of a parent’s duty.

So even mentioning this aspect of essentially unrestricted access to your spouse’s body, gets you labelled as some kind of sexual slave-trader, probable human trafficker, or whatever.

The reality is, of course, as usual, quite different. Although in the modern day, the pleasure of truly gifting your body to another has, for the most part, in many women, been reduced to a pleasure in being especially submissive during the sex act, the reality is that a true and natural submission to your spouse (husband or wife as they may be) is of incomparably finer and deeper beauty than a mere sex act, however “accomplished” that might be.

It is a difficult concept to transmit to another human being that has not experienced both the degraded version (which almost everyone today that is asexually active knows only too well) and the correct one, but the difference is obvious and unforgettable once experienced.

The unfortunate (and intentional) barriers to understanding these things have been hammered into all of us with such persistence and over all of our lives, that regaining a properly ordered sexuality is going to be quite the task, and will require conscious effort. But I assure you it is worth it.

I hope the video helps clarify many things for a lot of people.

Stating the Obvious

Sometimes, it is actually worthwhile pointing out something that even the most basic wide-angle or bird’s eye view observation of affairs on Earth would make blindingly obvious, and yet, seems to escape the vast majority of humanity. More often than I’d like, including me too.

If the last four years have made anything absolutely crystal clear it is that this whole planet is almost entirely under the rule of people and organisations that not only lie blatantly about pretty much everything, but that, in the main, are hell-bent on trying to kill us, wipe us out and destroy our families, children and general lives.

If you pay attention at a global level in a dispassionate, objective, coldly mathematical sense, it become absolutely obvious that IF we accept the premise that “most people are basically good” then something is badly wrong with the world. Because literally most of everything that goes on is certainly not good for you. From the foods they promote and produce to “feed” you, to almost everything pharmaceutical, to the ways in which governments around the world work (in case you are wondering, in the parasitic and self-sustaining-at-your-expense way, best explained by Lysander Spooner in his outstanding piece on Natural Law) to how the “laws” are applied, to how commerce between people is often designed to “work” and that’s even before we bring up usury, banks, and the absolutely criminal practices those bunch of degenerate thugs indulge in. How is it possible, that if “most people are basically good” so much wrong, so much structurally painful, and really outright evil is going on.

Statistically, even if you were to put it down to the average person being a complete moron (well intentioned as they may be, morons cause all sorts of problems) you have two problems: That level of global stupidity would not be capable of creating, nor maintaining the very evil structures we now have in place. In short, there needs to be a certain level of intelligence behind it. And yet, even in countries where the average IQ is relatively low, sometimes even greater evil is absolutely prevalent (see the kind of things that go on in African genocidal wars of the 1990s). Secondly, even if you consider “stupid but basically good” people as indeed damaging (they are) the (supposed) preponderance of intelligent and also basically good people, would build systems that the average moron can navigate with relatively little potential for causing endemic evil.

So, while stupidity is certainly a contributing factor, it cannot be a pivotal factor. Nor can misplaced “good intentions”. Because again, if “most people are good” the intelligent ones go ahead and build systems that are safer from “good intentions” with bad outcomes.

Then you take another data point. The average human. Or even just you, the superior kind of human being that reads this blog (and understands it). Well, good as you may be, you lie. You may only lie infrequently, and mostly to avoid hurting others, but the reality is all human beings lie. It’s just a matter of degree. Personally I have a sliver-thin tolerance for it in general and pretty much none in my private and family life. And of course, yes, I have lied in my own private and family life. Nothing big, really pretty innocuous stuff for the most part (but hey, if I was some kind of freak it’s not like I’d tell you on my blog, right?). And we all have such hypocrisy in our lives. Of course the reasons “vary” but not really. In essence, lies all originate from fear. A fear of the consequences of the truth. Whether to us or loved ones.

But let’s imagine a planet where no one lies. Where everyone just always tells the truth as objectively and unafraid as possible. If we also assume that human beings on this planet also have the same general emotional maturity (or rather lack of) that we have now, and that event (the no lies thing) switched on suddenly at midnight today, the body count would be astronomical within 24 hours.

But let’s say after a week, when most of the human population has killed each other off because of the radical honesty, and there are only a few of us left, strong and emotionally secure enough to survive the truth and noting it daily (assuming such a rose-tinted outcome would even happen, because the mass murders would lead to more, etcetera), what would such a planet look like? Well, it might actually be a kind of paradise.

Imagine the consequences. No stealing, no theft, no injustice. Because if everyone was honest, we all know what is right and wrong, and if you are truly honest, you can’t justify any of your shitty behaviours. And really, why do we not live on such a planet? It would clearly be a better world. So what keeps pushing humanity into ever deeper pits of deception and self-deception? And why is it we tend to crucify those few who really try to tell the truth?

Well… and here is the obvious part:

Do you realise that the Christian explanation of reality fits these conditions precisely, explains them and can be used to predict many, many, many things accurately?

And in specific I mean the Catholic (yes, yes, only the 1958 Sedevacantists are Catholics today) explanation. Original sin explains the fact that despite our supposedly “good intentions” and our supposedly all being “mostly good” we all behave like shitty humans. We are all, literally, flawed.

And the fact that this planet is under the dominion of evil and lies, can hardly be denied when you look at things from a bird’s eye view.

Plus, if you look at history with the same bird’s eye view, (assuming you can find the truth in the events that actually took place) then the general trend you will note is that literally every other philosophy aside from Catholicism has led humanity to a place of, at the very best, not totally horrific stagnation. And in most cases utter malignant societies. And Catholicism is literally the only perspective that has factually improved humanity’s lot.

In short, regardless of your personal beliefs, if you actually take the time to observe the human story of the last few thousand years, it is utterly undeniable that Catholicism explains reality better than any other model.

Of course, today, the supposed “catholic” Church as presented in the Novus Orco is yet another nest of indemoniated pedophiles, and only a remnant is left. But this too happened before and, again, if you educate yourself on all the times Catholicism by all rights should have disappeared from the Earth, it become nigh-on impossible to explain how it has survived unless it is miraculously protected, at least on some level, by a benevolent and all-powerful force.

And as I always say, regardless of your own ideas, if a model works, use it, at least until you find a better model that better predicts reality in all its multi-faceted possible outcomes.

And if the model works, then there really is no reason to not embrace, it. Or at least, to seriously investigate its less obvious underpinnings.

Well, at least that’s the way those of us who are not playing the part of the apes in our very own version of Planet of the Apes.

So, I hope you will at least consider this obvious but oft-ignored perspective, and may it be fruitful to you.

On Raising Girls

Thanks to TrevorGoodchild on Gab, I was made aware of this long but very good post on the female perspective of the modern radioactive wasteland that is the current era in terms of social interactions.

One of the most insightful passages was this:

Feeling alienated from your body, disliking the male attention your body invites, secretly feeling a kind of thrill when your beauty benefits you, enjoying the power you hold over men: these are feelings girls commonly experience as they transition to womanhood.

In a healthy society, young girls eventually come to terms with these complex and somewhat contradictory feelings. This is not the case today. Today, young women are rewarded most for acting on their most pathological impulses. Platforms such as Instagram and OnlyFans incentivize some young women to profit from the male gaze to the detriment of their future well-being. On the other hand, for young women who feel alienated by their sexual desirability (or lack thereof), there exist a plethora of alternative online communities like FTM or pro-eating disorder spaces that offer young women refuge from the male gaze, while offering them emotional support and subcultural status.

What is not at all encouraged is coming to terms with the complex feelings womanhood induces within young girls, coming to terms with that mix of terror and thrill. This process is entirely disrupted by modern social norms. Why? Because sexual norms today skirt around one obvious, horrifying fact: women like being sex objects. That eighteen year old on OnlyFans? She’s not motivated by entrepreneurial drive, economic desperation, patriarchal socialization, or any such external factor we may want to point to. No, she simply likes the idea of being a hot commodity, of being so sexy that men would pay to see her. She likes being a whore. Acknowledging women’s innate desire to be sexualized, to be objectified, is sacrilegious; it is a truth conveniently avoided by both feminists and traditionalists alike. Instead, they posit that women’s behaviour is entirely downstream of that of men’s, that if men didn’t desire women so much, that if they stopped watching porn, stopped “objectifying women,” stopped having sex outside of marriage, that all sexual degeneracy would disappear. And so, male sexuality is criminalized, and female sexuality is conveniently ignored. And while this set of social norms preserves a rosy, hapless image of women, it harms young girls through its complete lack of social regulation of feminine sexual impulses. If you do not restrict female sexual impulses, what you get is a race to the bottom, with young girls intensely competing with each other for sexual attention. A lack of common sense limitations leads to a rise in things like unnecessary plastic surgeries, the proliferation of photoshop, hypersexual online personas. The digital landscape is flooded with images of inhumanly beautiful women. Intense sexual competition has adverse effects on other young girls by either encouraging them to adopt such behaviours, or by alienating them from womanhood entirely.

Male fantasies, male fantasies, is everything run by male fantasies? Up on a pedestal or down on your knees, it’s all a male fantasy: that you’re strong enough to take what they dish out, or else too weak to do anything about it. Even pretending you aren’t catering to male fantasies is a male fantasy: pretending you’re unseen, pretending you have a life of your own, that you can wash your feet and comb your hair unconscious of the ever-present watcher peering through the keyhole, peering through the keyhole in your own head, if nowhere else. You are a woman with a man inside watching a woman. You are your own voyeur”

.—Margaret Atwood, The Robber Bride

Ultimately, what growing up means for girls, is coming to terms with the male gaze. The male gaze, contrary to the popular feminist conception of it, is not a product of patriarchal society. Rather, the voyeur in your own head is a native facet of feminine psychology. The voyeur in your head is awareness of your desirability, the power it holds, the danger it can bring; this awareness is crucial for women to have as they navigate the world around them.

And the most insightful sentence in that extract was this:

She likes being a whore.

That one sentence, in the context it was written, is, as the writer correctly identifies, the biggest taboo of the modern world. That admission can never be made in public without the person saying it being essentially cancelled as some kind of woman-hating, (internalised if you are female like the writer, of course) patriarchal pig/slave (depending on if you’re a man/woman) and so on.

Now, those men among us who had a past that involved being intimate with a rather high number of women, in a secularised context absent pretty much all religion of any kind, will know that pretty much every woman has that impulse somewhere in her make up. I’m sure there are exceptions, but they are generally not what one would refer to as “normal” women. Some may be the result of rape, sexual abuse, and so on. Some may be neuro-atypical and so on, as always, nothing is always all the same, there are always exceptions, but by and large, the average woman, has in her a “I want to feel like a whore” button. Some are more aware of it than others, of course, and some are unaware of it until a man flicks that button a few times expertly, but as I say, in most cases it’s there. It is, in essence, a normal biological aspect of femaleness, just like it is a biological aspect of maleness to like feeling like a conquering hero (or anti-hero, whatever, the conquering and winning part is what makes us feel alive).

Did you see that Sci-Fi film with Arnie called Total Recall (it’s badly based on a PKD story) but anyway when they are presenting him with a fictional fantasy holiday and they ask him what romantic partner he would like for his fantasy induced “holiday” and they say “be honest” he gives up and indeed says: “Slutty”.

Using the word all/every in the same context as above, i.e. a generalisation, it is simply a fact that every man wants a whore in bed and a lady outside of their bedroom (well, ok, home in general, maybe public toilets, secluded spots in parks, back of cars… you know what I mean!).

The ideal woman for most men is a complete slut in bed, open to all the sexual excitement and fantasies he might have, but… loyal most of all and forever to just him.

And the ideal man for pretty much every woman, is a man that is manly enough to make her want to behave like a complete whore in bed. But who has eyes only for her.

The ideal relationship for both sexes is one where the other partner inspires almost unbridled sexuality and sensuality for you, while at the same time confining it within the limits of your relationship.

Yes, I am aware that there are large (and growing) areas of the population where wife-swapping, cuckolding, orgies, multiple sex partners and other fetishes actually take place, but those relationships where those aspects of sex become a regular reality instead of remain limited to a private fantasy, invariably end in tears and tragedy. There are no successful “polyamorous” relationships or long term “throuples”. Every one of those perversions of the natural order of one man and one woman is not conducive to the maximum happiness for both. Some might be artificially sustainable, such as the practice of having multiple wives. Historically there are instances where powerful men or certain societies permitted men to have multiple wives, and such societies still exist and one could say “function” after a fashion, but the reality is that neither the man nor the women in those situation had reached their maximum potential for true, deep, lasting serenity, and that is for a very simple reason:

Maximum serenity is achieved when you have real, deep, intimate connection to another human being and that can only be achieved at its deepest and most pervasive level in an intimate relationship between a man and a woman.

Oh, you might touch aspects of it in certain fetishised moments of a relationship that is not classical of that kind. Certainly I have experienced in my pre-catholic days a certain level of sexual gratification/understanding with some women, that even though was at times simply limited to that singular or infrequent encounter due to the temporary nature of the “relationship” achieved a certain level of “understanding” or feeling of mutual acceptance without any judgement or however you want to label it, that it does achieve a sense of closeness, an aspect, if you will, of “love” or at least a facet of it. But one might make the same statement of perhaps a pair of serial killers finding a moment of “spark” as they hunch over their latest victim to cannibalise it. Yes, yes, you might have felt something that you might think is “deep” and insofar as your experience of life might go (you know as a serial killer, or serial slut (of either sex)) it may well have been the “highlight” to date of your connection with another human being, and because sex is so powerful, if you just had your third and most mind-blowing orgasm in a row while trussed up in some S&M position in your full gimp outfit and a livecam to your only fans only “enhancing” the thrill for you, you might think you have reached the pinnacle of human intimacy. But you have not. You may have touched bottom on a deep dive into some fetishism, specific degenerate thing or even wide-spread generic degeneracy, but true, deep, pervasive intimacy, you have not reached sir, or madam. And trust me, I speak from a rather extensive degenerate past and experience on the matter.

The level of human intimacy that truly calms and fills you with a genuine and pervasive experience of love, is only generated between one man and one woman. Instinctively we all know that from birth. As the ancient Greeks and others knew, there are various forms of love, and we can define different relationships on the basis of it, but the one that covers all of them the most is simply the one that is of a man and woman who choose a life together to make children and raise them. Anything else is a shadow at best if not a cruel parody that brings only misery (gay “marriages” and the accompanying child trafficking that results from gay “adoptions”).

Your relationship with a woman you are particularly compatible with sexually might feel fulfilling, and indeed such relationships usually last quite long if there is at least a baseline of other factors to support it, but amazing sex on its own will not do it, yet, in the modern era, the focus is on that first and foremost.

If you have daughters and are raising them and you are unaware of these facts, or worse, you try to ignore them pretending they are not realities, your daughters are headed for the rocks in the metaphoric navigation of life.

Acknowledging a girls’ natural inclinations due to her biological sex is required, as is required your duty as father to teach her how to avoid the pitfalls of her own biology. Just as you do with a boy you would raise. But as a man, raising a boy is easier, because firstly, we are simpler, secondly we are men, so we know what it’s like to be one, and thirdly, boys are generally responsive to plain logic and direct line of thinking. The pitfalls for both boys and girls are mostly handled by the same skill: The ability to regulate your own emotions. Difficult as it is for all human beings, the skill is generally a lot easier to achieve for boys. and once again, the reasons are mainly biological.

Female brain structure is physically different in some important aspects from male brain structure. Their hormones affect them and their thinking, mood, mind and brain to degrees that men can only imagine, but rarely experience outside of perhaps drug induced stupors.

Helping a young girl navigate not only the outside world, but her own biology and emotion-inducing hormones, is a far more delicate and complicated matter.

You do need to be aware of her biology and not demonise aspects of her that are natural things, but you also need to teach her to regulate these things in a way that leads to healthy and positive outcomes for her and steers her away from negative outcomes. And you also need to appreciate that for a girl or woman, the ability to control her emotions in a positive fashion tends to be far more restrictive. Historically every functioning society has known this, placing heavy and strict restrictions on female sexuality. And of course the feminists will tell you it was all to oppress women and so on, but the reality is that (as the article mentioned also points out clearly) women, left to their own devices tend to make horrifically bad decisions and civilisations tend to collapse in short order when this is the case.

An innocuous example might suffice.

In teaching self-discipline to my children, the approach with the boy, who is only 4, is very much simpler and direct. He’s been told eating too much sweets or say chocolate, or whatever is not good for him and we want the best for him and as a result he simply asks if he can have this or that and when he is told no, at most he asks why. Provided a clear explanation he accepts the decision most times. His little sister seeing him do this is more disposed to following suit… I say more disposed… not how much more… It’s a tiny amount. She will argue and try to pull a fast one a lot more than he does. My eldest daughter on the other hand is a complete choc-aholic. I was the same and even in my thirties and later I could eat three full chocolate slabs and think nothing of it. When I was swimming competitively as a teenager and living alone in the UK I survived on cheese and chocolate and random meals I microwaved. I was never fat, because I always moved and I have lucky genetics. She is very similar in this regard, but when I explained it is not healthy and she should not devour whatever chocolate is in the house (something she did like a thief in the night several times) and I finally put my foot down hard, far more on the sneaky way she had done it than the thing itself, the next time we went shopping and it was just me and her and I said should we get some chocolate, she said no. Surprised I asked how come. Her explanation was enlightening:

“Because I can’t really control myself if I know we have it in the house. So if it’s not there, at least I can’t go and eat it.”

The boy would simply be ok with not touching it until he’s told it’s ok to do so, or limit himself to one or two pieces a day or week or whatever we decided, but the girl realised her own will-power or discipline was not enough and so took steps to safeguard against her own known weakness.

That subtle but extremely important difference plays out throughout most of a woman’s life.

And returning to sex, because it is such a powerful force, if a girls’ (also natural) defences against being bedded are bypassed by some slight of hand/emotional manipulation/general social pressure, and then repeatedly so, her ability to bond deeply with another human being becomes scarred over by each encounter, making it progressively harder to make it a possibility.

Being aware of these things as a father is of paramount importance, and I am astonished at the level of absolute incompetence we see today in the parenting skills in general but especially of how pathetic so many men are at being fathers for their daughters.

I see comments from apparently fathers that ask things like: “What can I do? I mean the sex stuff is everywhere and my daughters dress like whores, but it can’t be helped, and where will they find a good man?”

Well buddy, short a miracle, they won’t because they never had one in the first place where they should have: Their home! You weakling, metrosexual, pathetic excuse for a father.

Seriously, the more I look at Clown World with a bird’s eye view, the more I realise that I was absolutely right ten years ago, some 3 years before I even got baptised, when I said that two things would be pivotal: Christianity (which I have since come to view as being limited to actual Catholicism i.e. 1958 Sedevacantism) and city states, because once the SHTF it will be communities that stick together that will resit and survive whatever evil wind comes their way.

I hope more and more people will see these truths soon, and that is happening, even if I know the numbers will never approach what my blue-sky tinted heart would wish.

But you never know; God does act in mysterious ways; and he does have a powerful sense of humour, after all: He made me a hardcore Believer.

This last piece from the article is another important point (emphasis added):

Why are young women today so deranged? Because no one is honest with them and they cannot be honest with themselves. Parents lie to you, teachers lie to you, friends lie to you, everyone lies to you. If anyone dares tell you the truth, they are ostracized.

There is the ultimate betrayal. Parents who lie to their children about reality. Life. Basic stuff. And many do so because they are so retarded and brainwashed themselves they honestly don’t know any better.

But many do it because of the fear of running against the grain. Of indeed, being ostracised.

Luckily for my daughters, I never gave a flying fornication at a rodent’s anus what pretty much the entire rest of humanity thought of me or if I was well-liked or feared or infamous. As a result, no matter how counter-narrative the truth may be, there is never any worry that they will not be told how two plus two is always, without any exception, forever and ever, four.

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